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It's been a long time.

2009-11-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.

first & foremost, let me reply to the tags...

to ggrace: what my brother's bagpack? HEH. i dont quite remember lehh! oh yeah, and of coz, my leg is better! :D can run alr.

to zhira: thanks i'm doing fine. i miss you loads too! when we meeting up eh?

to Josiah: yes dude, i'm in MDIS CURRENTLY.

to zhimin: here you go.

okayy, wanna know what's been going on in my life?

well, life in MDIS is definitely better than doing A lvls. HAHA. seriously!
i've been doing quite okay. and i thank GOD for HIS grace and providence for me. (:
and friends HE has put along side me and all. (:

other than tt, i'm just truly GROWING FAT! :(
tt part, i dont really like it. its like, i put on ALOT faster than i can lose. :( oh wells.
what to do? it's like it really takes a lot a lot of discipline!

i am also trying to save up money for a lot of things i want to get and do and stuff like that. HEH.
i'm not too sure why either, but i really am in a HUGE deficit now.

Today, i attended ben & chinyi's wedding. (: it was simply beautiful! now i know why i love weddings. its really a life time commitment and not just like for the moment thing. yepp.
& the best part was that i got to catch up with SAM & STEPH! :D it was really good! because, i realised that i really miss them a lot!

I think I should be sleeping soon but i just feel that there's so much on my mind. :(
I don't know how to put it across but i feel something is missing in my life.
Something in me has changed.
And whatever that change is, I DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL. ://

oh wells, i REALLY REALLY was looking forward to the yr end trip, where i could really get away from all the hustle and bustle here in sg, away from the other things and ppl and all... but now tt i cant go, its really quite a big disappointment.

i've been wanting to do a retreat for like more than a yr now and still, i dont get to do it.
It's like there's no time (yeah, i know, time is for me to allocate and make...) but seriously, it's like a cycle of things! very hard to break! :(

i'm sure i could feel better.
Just needed a space to rant.

in HIS love.
CHARI ((:

FINALLY GONE.

2009-07-08T12:30:00.003+08:00

heyy EVERYONE!

i'm back to blog. LOL!
through all my packing and all, i decided i should blog. :P

i'm finally moving. finally gone.

both mixed feelings of happiness and sadness.

okayy, i'm sad coz, i've lived in semb for like 8 yrs now.

and there's so much that happened here. in css for 4 yrs,

my friends, the time spent in semb park, in SP, SSC...

in shuyun's house... HAHA. and all the fun downstairs at our roof garden.

OH MAN! memories.

i think the ppl that misses me most are my sembawang friends...

they're like all REALLY sad that i'm moving.

and to somewhere so far some more! :(( i'm sorry.

i PROMISE i'll be back to visit okay?! my number's still the same! :D HAHA

but on the bright side, shifting over to PP is a good thing because

#1. i'll be nearer sch. in a way. (i hope i save a bit on travelling)

#2. food there is much cheaper.

#3. less temptations and distractions (because no shopping mall! HAHA)

#4. nearer to TOWN! (so much for no shopping mall! :P)

#5. nearer to CHURCH.

#6. nearer to SUS/MARCUS/JEM!

#7. easier for mummy to look after baby joel.

#8. semb house is too BIG.

and many other reasons i guess.

so yepp, i think... i gtg. TAKE CARE EVERYONE! :D

lots of love.

CHARI :D

WHOA, finally SHIFTED.

2009-05-13T04:20:00.002+08:00

HEYY!!!

whoa, long story.
okayy, i had a very fruitful day today actuallY!
i slpt at like 2 plus..
and woke up at 9.55am.
and then had breakfast with grandma.
i spent quite some time with her today.
conversing with her in my broken hokkien plus mandarin. wasnt easy man! LOL.

anw, then had to go settle the boxes in the marsiling house.
://////
wahh pianggg eh..
daddy and mummy do from 9.30am all the way til i came, we did all the way til 3am can?! finally cleared! -.-
threw away like more than 10boxes of things i think!
POWER EH?!
BAHHH. we're all SO SUPER tired!

SPECIAL THANKS TO PEOPLE WHO CAME TO HELP!
1) AH EE JANET (9.30am-4pm)
2) UNCLE JIMMY (2.30pm-4pm)
3) VINCENT (4.45pm-11.45pm) poor best friend didnt even have dinner! he only had dinner at 12midnight!!!! ://
4) UNCLE KENG SENG (10pm-3am) but he only help carry boxes and talk. LOL!!! :P
5) GABRIEL (10.30 or 11pm-3am) poor thing too. so tired. SAEH alr by the time we went home.
6) ERIC (11pm-3am) he stil bring my parents out eat supper/"breakfast".

LOL!!! so all in all, we had all these SPECIAL ppl who swung by to help! ((:
if nt, i think jus 3 of us, we wud have done til we faint! HEH.

Vincent and i had hk cafe for dinner/supper.
but we kinda eat nt enuff. LOL.
shiok seh. :P

thank GOD that they close at 2am.

anw, above all, THANK GOD for giving us the strength to clear things.
for the people who came down.
and for knowing before hand, that i cudnt work this wk. so can help to clear things. ((:
and thru the process of packing, i found like $50 in total! HAHAHA! POWER EH? :P

GOD'S BLESSINGS!!! ((:

thank YOU everyone!
we truly appreciate ur help!!! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

EVIDENCE OF CURLY WOOLY!

2009-05-03T00:55:00.003+08:00

hehe. how do u like my curls? (:

charii

CURLY WOOLY!

2009-05-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

heyyy!!! (((:

oooh!! how i really love shopping eh?
esp when u have the right ppl to shop with.
and someone to pay for u! ((: HAHAHA. :P
thanks sus!

and sorry guys!
made u guys waited so very long.
but i needed to SHOP! HEH.
yes yes.
i did buy stuff.
3 tops!
HAHA.
you'll see them in time to come! :P

tried a dress at ZARA!
quite nice.
but $159.
so didnt buy in the end.
i shopped from like 2 plus til like 7 plus..
with an in between hair cut which lasted quite long because of mummy's colouring. (:
but i think she looks good! ((:
HEHE.

and aunty melissa allowed me to try a few curls just for the fun of it!
and its really fun!
i love the curls!
i guess just unusual.
something different.
FINALLY! HAHA. :p

will consider making it permanent. HEH.
i've got photos to post too.
but kinda too many. OH WELLS! :P
HEHE.

i immediately called my 2 best friends over to show them my "DEALS" of the day!
and of coz my new hair do! HEH..
best friends are the best! :P
they just make u happy with their presence!
thanks for spending time with me! ((:
love u both very much! ((:
HEHE.
GIRLFRIENDS ARE THE BEST!!!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

my best friend for today is the toilet bowl...

2009-04-30T00:36:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!

my stomach is hurting like crazy.
i really shouldnt have gone out at all.

i went to play pool with gabby and daren.
and today it was so much better.
more used to the place and all.
((:

i got to play properly despite my pain and all.
but by the time i reached home, i was in tremendous pain. ://
so far, i've vomited 2 times.
my lunch and dinner is all out.

i think i've spent enuff time with the toilet bowl.
like seriously.

i'm extremely sleepy.
i only slpt at 4am this morning.
was thinking abt many things.
and praying and all.
and writing down my thots and all.

so yepp, i'm finally feeling slightly better.

today, GOD sent ppl to come cheer me up and hear me out. ((:
i really thank GOD for nat, daren and gab. ((:
u guys made my day.
thank U! ((:

anw, pretty tired.
i got new game i'm hooked onto. HAHA.
its called... TEXT TWIST. ((:

anw, i really think its time we move on,
and stop being bogged down by all the small, trivalities of life. -.-
come on la, none of us are growing younger.
all of us are growing older.
but the question is... are all of us growing UP?
PONDER...

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

A NICE FAMILY DINNER. (:

2009-04-27T01:51:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!

i had very little sleep last night.
and was extremely tired.
was abit troubled by some stuff earlier on.

then before i left church, i was invited to a family dinner.
or rather, i didnt really know it was gonna be a family dinner.
and i decided i wud wanna go.
tho i was like really not in the mood for a party.
HEH.
but i'm really glad i did.
coz it made someone's day!
((:

and tho the stuff joked about and talked abt were crude in some ways,
i must say, i laughed alot.
and it was really funny.
and i think jacky is quite handsome actually!
lol.
defined features. ((:

hmm..
mahjong on labour day?
really must see how.
and my tiles are rather old.
hope u guys wont mind. ://

i'm SUPER UBER exhausted right now.
but my hair isnt really dry yet.
so i'm gonna play bejeweled! HEHE.

thanks for everything!
thanks for cheering me up and listening to me and giving me advice!
((:

i pray you'll continue to GROW in the LORD ya? ((:
QT!!!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i'm an ADDICT.

2009-04-26T00:46:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!

i loveeee to SHOPPP!!!! HAHAHA.
i really love it to bits and pieces!
dang, should have gotten that tee-shirt!
i knew i had to have it.
now i feel there's smth missing in my wardrobe.
HEHE.

i'm addicted.

i'm addicted to many many things!!!
TOP 10 THINGS i'm ADDICTED TO:
#1. POOL!
#2. TAKING PHOTOS!
#3. SHOPPINGGG (includes trying clothes, window, and PURCHASING THEM!)
#4. EATING!
#5. HONGKONG DRAMAS.
#6. BEJEWELED! / MINESWEEPER
#7. MAKING YOU SMILE/LAUGH!
#8. BAKING.
#9. TALKING ON THE PHONE!
#10. GOINGGG OUT WITH YOUUU!!!! (((((((((:

I'M DEFINITELY NOT ADDICTED TO DRUGS.
DON`T WORRY! heh.

alrightys, i love baking. esp with the ppl i love! HAHA.
they're so fun! baking is so fun with my best friend and mummY! LOL.
i'm gonna bring them to church to let my cell ppl try tmr! HEHE. :p

i managed to get a top and a pair of jeans today! HEH.
finally! my grey jeans is coming in 3-5days time! HEHE.
i spent $82.60 at giordano!!!
HEH.
but my darling best friend offered to pay half! WOOTS!!
THANK YOU! YOU'RE THE BEST!
lol. duhh. you're my BEST friend! right? LOL.

next wk is shopping again with my best friend again!!! LOL.
ZARA, FOREVER 21, COTTON ON, BOSSINI, where else do u wanna go my dear?
LOL. macham i strike lottery gt alot of money eh?
its jus my craving for nicer tops coming iN! and shorts!!!

the weather has been REALLY AWFULLY HOT!!! piang eh, cannot stand it ah.
today i showered twice lehh!!! bahh!!
but i feel super clean! ((:
HAHA.

anw, i gtg.
need to beat someone's high score in BEJEWELED!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

KNOCK KNOCK JOKES!

2009-04-22T11:00:00.003+08:00

heyy!!!

didnt have the time to blog yesterday!
heh.
knock knock jokes with nicholas was hilarious!
i laughed so hard. so very hard.

i guess, in a way, its been good lah.
i've had quite a few good laughs since sunday! LOL!

my dad's really funny u see.
and he says it so matter-of-factly.
LOL.

anw, i met nich and gabby yesterday coz it was Ben&Jerry's Free Cone DaY!!
i met them at yck.
but then i was kinda late. nt really my fault... coz... nich's lessons ended early! HEH.

we went down to novena to check out the ice cream.
i really wanted to eat ice cream. HEH...
to our dismay,
the queue was EXTREMELY loooonnngggg.....
so, we decided forget it la.
it was beneath us to queue. HAHAA!!

we went to take NEOPRINTS!!! :P
LOL.
nich and i stood at the machine for a SUPER long time just perfecting our photos! LOL.
it was hilarious.
and nich, i realised, u're quite arty eh? :P

then poor nich cudnt try shoes.
went down to city hall to meet melvin.
and we all reached at the same time.
saw him at the platform. HAHA.

wanted go tecman to change nich's bible due to printing error,
but no receipt. so cant change.
i bought very nice LOVE-ly stickers.
and that was where nich and i browsed thru many many JOKE BOOKS!!!
really laughed till ppl stared. HEH.

then we walked back towards the station. didnt know where to go...
i wanted corn nibblets.
but, they suggested gelare instead.
so since it was TUESDAY,
we went to eat waffles with icecream!!! HEHE!!! :P
YUMMY!!!

i love it!
then i had to rush off to meet my friend.
which in the end, i was pretty late. ://
and as a result, we had to forgo our show.
i'm sorry.
oh wells...

but, it was worth it la,
at least got to talk some stuff out.
and made certain things clear.

was a pretty tough decision for me too.
but.. i thank GOD for the strength HE gave me.
and i know GOD will see us thru it. ((:

i really hope, now that things have been spoken, it wud be clearer.
and things wud be understood.
((:

i watched princess diaries 2.
totally love it.
tho i missed quite a few parts here and there.
HEH.

bakinggg!!! here i come!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

SLEEP!

2009-04-14T00:16:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!
hahaa. i must have been really tired last night.
so i slpt alot today.

vomited at 3am this morning.
:(
but i guess it was necessary for my stomach and throat and nose to all feel better.
HAHA.
i'm on the road to recovery.
i guess i just have to sleep early. :P

i ate corn today! REALLY NICE!
good buy! i should buy more next time.
GIANT!
when are we going?? :P
HEH.

ermm.. i wanted to badly to eat corn muffins today at kenny rogers.
but i didnt get to eat them in the end anw.

calvin's bday is ard the corner, and i'm really excited to see all my friends again.
coz the other time i missed mich's bday party. :(
oh wells.
but this time, i will go. i must! HEHE.
i wanna stay in contact with my friends!
been making a constant effort this past few days to talk to ppl online! :P

i'm pretty excited abt what's to come!
JUNE JUNE JUNE!
HEH! ((:

i guess i'm tired too. should sleep soon.
i prayed, and GOD spoke! ((:

HEHE.
press on everyone!

JESUS LOVES U!

love.
CHARI ** ((:

AWESOME FUN! ><

2009-04-13T01:29:00.002+08:00

heyy!!! ((:

hahahaa. i felt like as if i played thru the night. even though i was supposedly resting.
HEH.
i felt i played 20hrs out of 24!
i felt i really utilised my day!
finallY!
oohhh.. i wish i cud play pool everyday of my life!
HEH.
i love playing pool!
so random.
maybe i should go ask if yishun safra need people. LOL.

anw, driving daytona is fun!
try driving a real car?
HEH. maybe. maybe not.
LOL.
ooh. i like MAZDA.. :p
i wanna an AUDI A4!!!

i'm going crazy.
took many many tests of facebook today.
1) i'm SPONGEBOB. (didnt know tt the yellow sponge was a SUPERHERO! -.-)
2) my true is age 31-40 yrs old. i always put ppl before me. HEH.
3) i'm a musical - WICKED (why not hairspray?! HEH)
4) i'm a golfing car. (BMW LEHH!!)
5) my birthday month is supposedly june! (QUITE ACCURATE)
6) i'm a trombone Player!! (YEAH MAN! i love it!)
7) i cant remember if there's anything else.

i'll nv forget 12 april 2009!
such a memorable day! HEH!
too bad no photos of anything anything. oh memories. ((:
i pray i wont forget this day! ((:
Lord, i thank U! really thank U! ((:

i've been praying for 6 yrs just for this day!!!! WOOTS!
AMEN!
i'm really happY! HAHA. :P

and thanks everyone for praying for me!
cough attacks still happening through the night which makes me lose sleep very easily.
my head's spinning at the moment. i think time to sleep. ://
YAWNS!

anw, thanks for everything! ((:
YOU'RE TRULY MY BEST FRIEND! ((:
loves!! <3

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

panic attack...

2009-04-07T21:50:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!

thank u everyone for praying for me this aftnoon.
i was quite sure i was gonna be admitted into hospital.
but i'm sure GOD knows better.

i had really very acute cramps.
and i prayed and prayed and prayed.
and cried.
then i went to see the GP.
he say no need go hospital.

so i came home ate and slpt.
and felt abit better.
((:

i'm feeling a whole lot better now.
i believe GOD's in control of everything.
i need to learn to rely on GOD's strength and not take things into my own hands.

anw, i really really am missing someone now.
like ALOT.
but i thank GOD i got WALLY with me!
always smiling.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

pretty faces.

2009-04-07T01:01:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

2009-04-07T00:42:00.002+08:00

heyy!!

its mummy's birthday today!
HAHA!

okayy, i've decided to come back to blog. :P
i really quite enjoyed my day today.
super short day actually.
coz wanted to wake up by 8.45am.
but ended up getting up only at 12.45. HEH.

so in the end, had frosties for brunch plus watched only 3.5 episodes of my hk drama. :P
then had to leave le. coz supposed to meet sus at 5. in the end, reached only at 5.30.
coz i went to see the doc first.
met stephanie pan there. -.-
i wasnt really intending of meeting any of them.
tho i was thinking abt my band days.
oh wells.

had dinner with gab, mel, sus, yj and stephen.
then went in super early. at like 7.20.
lol.
i think jamming was pretty good today. ((:
yepp. ((:

i enjoyed myself alot. :P
i'm pretty tired now tho. HAHA.
and still wanting to wake up early tmr. :P
i have to ruN!
i'm getting round. LOL. :p

okayy. gonna post some photos up!
ALOT OF PHOTOS AH! :P

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

mmm.. i also...

2009-04-06T01:39:00.002+08:00

heyy!

i also dunno what to think.
what to feel.
how to feel.

honestly, i feel very trapped now.
i wanna be liberated.
when then can i be free?

when will my breakthru come?
i know i'm not struggling alone.

and everything is in GOD's hands.
but i'm really tired.
i'm really sick.

i dun like the lifestyle i have now.
and i have to change it.
and i cant jus keep talking abt it.

i've to do it like from today onwards!
target, goal, mission accomplished?

well, my ears are still blocked.
my head's spinning.
my throat's bleeding.
my heart is confused.

i wanna hide.
i wanna play pool.

i should sleep.

never put words in my mouth unless i really said so.

in HIS love
CHARI.

UNDER ATTACK.

2009-03-25T23:35:00.001+08:00

heyy.

i haven blogged in a very long while.
i guess, not many might read this. HAHA.

but still..
okay, i was being Attacked today.
SPIRITUALLY.
but in the midst of all these things, i think it was GOD's way of speaking to me.
many many things.
things that i've already been thinking about.
weighing me down and all.

i think i've finally got my answer.
yes, i would like to thank 4 ppl.
1. mummy.
2. glow.
3. mel.
4. sus.

yepp. thank U! because of the 4 of you. i finally hear GOD's voice again.

mummy used actions to wake me (literally as i was aslp)
glow used very powerful words to speak into my life.
mel used quietness to speak to me.
sus did it with her very willingness to listen.
(((:

thank U!

the word JOY has also been repeated many times today.
tho i cried real bad and hard today for like almost 4 hrs til i fell aslp,
i think it was a gd thing to acknowledge it and now see the goodness out of it.
i'm finally learning how to apply things i've learnt frm EVERYDAY WITH JESUS.

see friends, it is important to have a relationship with our HEAVENLY FATHER,
because HE loves us and cares about us VERY MUCH! ((:

press on everyone!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

this is what i've been up to. FAREWELL!

2009-02-19T20:31:00.004+08:00

yepp. tt's abt it. ((:

charii

guess who's back?

2009-02-19T20:18:00.001+08:00

HEYLO!!!

missed me? LOL. :P

i'm back. for now.
i cudnt take it.
i jus cudnt contain it.

i just had to blog it out.
i dunno how many ppl will really read.
or still do come back here.
LOL.

okayyy!
i'm really excited..
results are like coming out.

and what's even more exciting is that i'm gonna meet
ALEX, YJ, GENEGENE (OH, u know i miss u!!!) and SABBY!!!! ((((((:
woots. ((:

wanna see some photos? and what i've been up to? HAHA.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

last post

2009-01-30T22:48:00.003+08:00

heyy.. ((:

i'm gonna close my blog down.
thank U all for always reading and encouraging me.
but i guess, from now on, i wanna be personal.
:P

yepp.
moving on...

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

I am human too.

2009-01-30T14:30:00.004+08:00

i may seem tough and all.
but i'm not at all.
and maybe that's why people always take advantage of that.

i dunno.
i'm hurting so much inside.
i feel so dumb.
really extremely dumb.
it's nt that i dun trust GOD.
but i feel very alone right now in this world.

its a negative thingy.
and i dun want it either.
i think i haven had a break since 2005. and maybe tt's why.
when i thot i had it, it jus slipped right thru my fingers.

how in the world to convince myself tt i'm gonna be alright?
at the rate i go, my health is going down the drain.

in any way,
thank U all for praying for me.
i still believe God has HIS plans for me. ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

WONDERFUL DAY!

2009-01-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

heyy!!! (((:

i had a SUPER UBER eventful day!!! (((:
i love CNY!
CNY this yr has really changed my perspective of CNY!

do you know, CNY isnt jus a time where u collect angbaos, so your revenue can increase and spend more money on buying more clothes?
neither is it a time where u jus sit in front of the tv and eat new yr goodies and grow fat after that.
but, rather it is a time of fellowship,
a time where you share your joy and sorrow.
a time where ministry takes place.
a time where you pray for your family member.
a time where you share GOD's love with a loved one.
((:

yes, this year, that's my CNY. at least today.
and you know what?
not being able to eat the new yr goodies (due to BAD throat infection),
made me, sit very quietly listening to older people talk.
(oso because i got nt much voice)

and i enjoyed myself so much.
i'm really proud to be the 4th generation CHRISTIAN in my family!
i feel the responsiblity to share and bring those who have yet to know HIM!!!
we had 4 stops in total.
1st stop, i was quiet, jus enjoyed the "brunch" then left.

2nd stop, MAMA's house...
was extremely cool.
i really thank GOD for JEREMY PAN.
this close friend of mine, really is one of those who made my day today!
our timing was just so so so good!
and GOD knew we just had to meet today!!!
it was really quality time spent today.
(we haven spoken to each other, like heart-to-heart since since!!! )
and i realised how much both of us had to share! LOL.
how both of us realised 1 bowl of salted duck and veg soup is not enuff. (LOL)
i was so encouraged and spurred on even more to do exactly what GOD has called me to.
THANK YOU JEM JEM! ((:
one day. SOON!

then my cousins: JONATHAN, JENINE WEE, CHERYL, ESTHER, ALETHIA WEE
totally MADE MY DAY!
they're so super adorable.
so super funny because they talk like adults even though the oldest is only 9 this yr.
they hugged me. played with me.
took photos with and of me.
showed me how to play DS!
HAHA.

then it was to 5th GRANDUNCLE'S HOUSE.
i always love his place.
i dunno why.
though we only see each other once a yr, it always feels like we're super close.
and we talked abt missions and doing GOD's work there and all.
SUPER COOL! (((:
YEP.

then JOJO&CHRISTIAN'S HOUSE!
ooh goodness me, ROWENA JOY EBER is EXTREMELY cute and HIGHLY intelligent.
she's only 2yrs and 3mths nw, she's SUPER SMART!
super brilliant. speaks clearly.
proper english. ((:
and understands all tt i say.
she's so cool!
and so open and so SOCIALABLE!!!!
LOL.
she's SO CUTEEEE!!! aiyooo! i played with her more than 2 hrs lehh!
and then it was ministry time as we prayed for their family.
and CHRISTIAN is so nice.
he gave me cough medicine. coz he hear me cough until super bad. ://
and and, it felt great to see uncle CHRIS again! HEHE.
and for the 1st time meeting jonathan! haha. :p
he's so TALL!

oh and aunty margaret gave me manuka honey!!
she's so sweet.
and i got a photo of LEONARD smiling. LOL!
so goodlooking. jus like his daddy. LOL.
(((:

hahaa.. photos will be up sooN! :p
great day!
gonna sleep soon!
long day tmr! HEH.
and wed back to SERVE!
(((:

DEAR LORD, YOU SUSTAIN ME.
LORD, YOU'RE SOVERIGN.
DIRECT ME LORD.
IT'S SO SAD.
SO PAINFUL.
BUT, IN ALL THINGS, GOD WORKS FOR OUR GOOD.
AND HE'S FAITHFUL TO COMPLETE WHAT HE HAS STARTED IN US!
(((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

THANK YOU.

2009-01-25T18:51:00.002+08:00

well, it broke my heart when i read those words.

BUT, in anyway...
THANK YOU.
thank You for being you.
thank You for being there.
thank You for loving me.
thank You for your patience,
your understanding,
your sensitivity,
your GOD-fearing spirit.

Thank You for making a decision.
for correcting what was wrong.
thank You for everything said and shared.
thank You for being the ONE.
(((:

thank You.
because, i love You!

okay, thanks ernest, for listening in the train.
for the tissues.

thanks tim, for just sitting beside me silently and letting my tears flow.

thanks sus, for the hug, for allowing me to rant.
for the book, for the perspectives and views and all.

thanks carissa, for listening and the hugs.

thanks GABRIEL.
MR GABRIEL WONG, you do not know how much you've really been a blessing to me.
all your silent deeds.
your sensitivity.
your patience.
your being there for me! OH MYY!.
i'm so super touched by you the whole of yesterday.
for all the times, i tell u "oh gabby, you sure u're 21?"
i can tell u, the whole of yesterday told me STRAIGHT IN MY FACE,
yes, gabby is 21!
you're super sweet!
May you be blessed!

thanks YJ.
for the interesting talk.
thanks for broadening my perspectives.
and encouraging me.
and telling me how Good GOD truly is.
thank you for allowing gabby to send me home first.
((:

Thanks Melvin.
for encouraging me too.
and helping me to reason out the WHY part in me.
thanks for listening to me and sharing with me.
and still truly encouraging me though you're going thru a rough patch yourself.
((:

if i could have one desire,
before my life is through,
even in my darkest night,
my light will SHINE for YOU.

Most importantly, last but not least,
thank YOU JESUS.
for Your word so true.
NEVER LEAVING NOR FORSAKING ME.
FOR being my comfort in times of distress.
thank You Lord, for Your grace is sufficient for me!
Thank You Lord.
i Just want to thank You Lord, for intervening!
((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

IT's tough. BUT, GOD IS IN CONTROL.

2009-01-25T18:11:00.002+08:00

heyy ((((:

been going thru a rough patch in life.
and it aint easy at all.
yet, we all know, that at the end of this dark and what seems like a long tunnel will be the light.
and that the BREAKTHRU will come.

and yes, i am still being prayerful.
putting all my trust and hope in GOD.
and in HIM alone.

coz man can disappoint us. but GOD will never.
it's been said 2009 wud be tough.
and now, reality sets in.
it sure is tough.
but i thank GOD for this molding period.
no more, no more crying.
enough is enough.

and yep, i believe GOD is strong and able to carry me thru this hard time.
((((:

so i believe that GOD will do the same for u.
each of you who is going thru a tough time...
GOD will provide a way out for u.
((:
do not worry. ((:
read Matthew 6:25 - 34

i think today's sermon was super timely and powerful!
topic: BREAKTHROUGH in PRAYER!
and, rev mike used 2Samuel 5:17 - 24.
and like how DAVID put his trust in GOD.
and went by faith and won the enemies.

yep.
3main points.
#1. When you're faced with painful odds, begin with prayer! (v 17-19)
#2. When you pray, pray in FAITH to expect a breakthrough! (v 20- 21)
#3. When you pray, dont tell GOD what to do. Simply report for duty and wait for HIS instructions! (V 22-25)

yep, BLESSED CHINESE NEW YR! (((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i'n drained...

2009-01-20T13:55:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i'm super tired.
i dunno why.
i think it's extremely tiring when u have to go for SERVE every single day.
and to dive deep into GOD's word.
and to upkeep friendships
and yet, to serve in church.
and dance, and drum, and jam, and birthday parties.

ooh.. it drives me nuts. no time to rest.
no time for myself. WHOA, it's time to flY! LOL. :P

yep, hopefully soon, when i saved enuff, i'm gonna fly.
gonna make 3 trips out of singapore this yr!
i must, and i will.

the other thing is to lose weight. yah.
sleep at correct timing and wake up early.
tt shud help, plus all the no eating this, and no eating that.
heh.

i want my saturdays free.
guess what? up to date, i've only had 1 sat to myself.
next sat is CNY week, so going ps G's hse. HEH.
then the following sat is mich's 21st bday.
so i'll be going too. LOL.
HEH.

and then what's next? i really dunno!
then soon it'll be my birthday.
i hope it wud be fun.
HEHE.
hint hint, u guys can start planning now.
yeah, i think i've to save even more, coz i'm gonna get myself the stuff left on my wish list!
WOOHOO!!!

shopping really helps to relive stress u know? HAHAHA!! :P
but i spend, i oso save too okay? HAHA.

:P

so bored now.
i'm bored and sick of being sick! BAHH!
more medicine and gonna see doc laters.

CNY faster come! i wanna go shopping. HEHE!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

WHOA.

2009-01-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

this morning, i managed to get up at like 8.10am to go to church. and tho, i cudnt meet yj, ernest and cass in the morning at semb station, i met them at 142. LOL!

see, i wasnt tt late. HEHE. :P

and we reached church real early. :P i like that feeling. HEHE.
was supposed to go shopping today wiht CASS. but in the end...
i ended up having a heart to heart talk with ER GE!!!

which was pretty good. but it sure made me feel like crying after that.
HEH.
many things surfaced.
made me think abt alot of things.
made me re-think abt stuff.
made me realised stuff and all.
but all in all, it was good lah.

MAIN SERVICE was good today. (((;
worship was wonderful!
i knelt that, i had this compelling feeling to just kneel before GOD
and to cry out to HIM!
and i did.
and i asked GOD for a transformation.
i prayed and prayed and prayed.

and today, i was slightly attacked.
but i managed to overcome it.
GOD's so amazing! and HIS love for us NEVER ceases!!! ((((:
tt's the most precious and best thing! :p EVER!

and YOUTH SERVICE...
i think ernest is super good. (((:
yep, ernest, u sounded good on the keys!
and melvin, i think you were super ZAI today!
good job! keep practicing ya? (((:
and jem, great leading! HEHE. :P

and for the dancers, i'm sure you enjoyed yourself worshipping GOD thru dance today! (((:
let's all commit together and learn to dance unto the LORD!

okayy, i think i gtg. :P
will update more next wk! (((;

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

SHOPPING THERAPY

2009-01-16T20:01:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!

u know, i think i can only blog once a wk?

LOL!!! SERVE WAS GOOD. as usual.
we finished the whole gospel of MARK! (((:
power eh? in 1 sitting.
and i actually finished it twice.
coz i did it last night for homework! HEHE!

anw, and we learned how to draft out our own sermon
and to pick out our verses and all.
super cooL!

and i was like sick thru this wk. :(
quite sian. OH WELLS. ://

and today, we didnt have any break.
but, we withstood it!!!
and aft tt, i went shopping with mummy in town!

HAHA!! bought 2 pairs of very pretty shoes!!! ((((:
wanted to buy one real cute one but it costs $63!!! -.-
and wanted buy a dress and top. but in total wud be $128.70! -.-
but it was really pretty. :((( from fashion.LAB.
BUT, i went girdano and bought a pair of jeans! HEHE
wanted to buy 2 coz gt 40% discount, but in the end, mummy didnt want me to buy the grey one coz..... OH WELLS, too long to explain!
HAHA. but i wud still look for grey and black jeans! HEHE!!!!
more LONGS!!!! :P
and i'm having it altered. so it's stil in the shop. :P
shud be able to collect on tues. (((:

anw, and i took photo with charmaine today!!! HEHE!!! 3 shots. :P
hehe.

and i totally need to lose weight. so demoralising to know i'm EXTREMELY fat.
oh wells, i WILL okay?! just watch!
HEHE!!!

okay. gtg

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

2 ppl made my day today

2009-01-12T19:32:00.003+08:00

hehehee..

the very TWO ppl who made my day today are.....

CHARMAINE ONG (frm SERVE) and CARISSA FAN!!!
they're so super nice. and they made me smile.

i was quite surprised tt charmaine msged me to tell me to get well sooon and that she'll see me tomorrow! HAHAHA. i'm MISSED! :P

and CARISSA suddenly msged me out of the blue to ask me if i wanted to dinner with her in SEMB! LOL! :P so nice right?

2 surprises that made my day!!! HAHAHAHA! :p
hehe.. thanks girlfriends! (((:
love U!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i dunno

2009-01-12T19:12:00.002+08:00

i dunno why.
honestly.
why i'm struggling so much.
what's wrong with me?
what happened along the way?

did MI and the ppl there change me tt much?
why am i the way i am now?!

why do i always get dragged down and bogged down?
why do i not have self-discipline??
why am i such a lazy person?

it hurts so much.
does anyone besides GOD understand?
TRUST is such a simple word....
yet, easier said than done.

i always believe it takes two hands to clap.
this yr is gonna be a yr of discouragement, sianness and disappointments.
i'm not gonna entertain it.

LORD, You're King of kings, Lord of lords,
Lord, u've brought me to this point, i know You wont forsake nor leave me!
put YOUR hedge of protection round me pls.
Lord, i thank You for everyone in SERVE.
Lord, i want to serve YOU!
i really do.
pls Lord, pls give me Self-discipline
and self-control
and pls help me to be complete and happy once again in YOUR presence Lord.
give me the strength to carry on.
help me to pin ALL my hopes on You and not on MAN.
thank You Lord!
IN JESUS' NAME,
AMEN! (((:

CHAPALANG

2009-01-12T18:27:00.006+08:00

ICE WATERMELON!!! FILLED WITH LOVE! (((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

WATCHNIGHT SERVICE

2009-01-12T18:21:00.004+08:00

this was taken at like 1plus in the morning?? LOL

DIM SUM!!!

oh, this was during XMAS. LOL

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

EL-SHADDAI CONFERENCE!

2009-01-12T14:40:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i haven been able to blog for more than a week because SERVE PROGRAMME has started!!! HAHAH! ((:

and i've been staying in PP, in my brother's house.
i tell u, it makes so much difference living in pp lah!
can just walk lor. 10 mins! :P or less. HAHA.
and i can wake up at 7 plus! and still have breakfast and all.

i didnt go for SERVE today coz i'm sick. :(
i lost my voice.
and i went to see doc, the doc gave me anti-biotics. :P

and my friends in SERVE are so super cooL!
they're nice and friendly! LOL! :P
HEHE.
they are... CHARMAINE, EIRENE, JO, AARON, JAMES, TIMOTHY, ZOE, AU, JON NG, ABIGAIL, RODNEY, WEILIANG, NICHOLAS, ADEL, SHAKIL, JESSIE, SHIRLEY, JEREMY, GLORIA, JOSIAH!!! ((((: and together, WE ARE DOULOS~!!! (which means servant in greek!) ((:

no pictures to post yet. hopefully soon. HEH.

and yes, EL-SHADDAI CONFERENCE IS COMING!!!
6 to 7 feb (fri - sat)
i really hope all of you (esp those in POINT COMM) would avail urselves amidst ur exams and all to come for this conference to be equipped.!!! (((: and i pray u'll be blessed.
dun look at the price you have to pay, but think of the reward you'll received by going!!! (((:

remember to let either PASTOR G or brandon know by sunday latest!!! (((:

okayy, i gtg!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

2009!!

2009-01-03T15:23:00.002+08:00

heyyy (((:

blessed new year!!!

its alrdy 3 days into the new yr and i dun feel like its 2009! i stil write my dates as 08. LOL! :P its so exciting! coz it's finally here!!! everything's like happening extremely fast.

new yr jus started but it alrdy feels like it's past so fast! goodness. yep, i've to agree with jem tt 2008 was definitely a roller coaster ride for me.

1st of all, it was where transformation took place. where loads of molding took place.
where GOD really pulled me back to HIM and melt my heart and changed my life.
still in the process of refining.
but i believe GOD is doing smth big in my life!
i really wanna be more self-disciplined and self-controlled.

i've got alot of things to plan! alrdy some stuff are like fixed for the yr!
and tt's great. coz only 3 days into the new yr and it's like booked. LOL!
i realised, how i hate last min stuff. as in, i dun exactly plan things in detail, but i like to have the big picture before i add in the smaller, minute details. HAHA..

and i really got to thank GOD and all my family and friends who have supported me and saw me thru 2008! thru all the times when i was so super down and really wanted to give up and all, thank U for being so patient with me and still embracing me and walking down the road with me! (((:

SERVE PROG is gonna take 3 mths. by then As wud be out.
then it wud be deciding which UNI and what course to take.
and in the mean time, it wud be taking BTT (yeah, i haven taken it) LOL!
and complete the whole driving thing.
and to SERVE GOD. i'm super happy to be back on P&P serving with gabbY! (((:

oh yes, and now, it's super different because we no longer have cell on fri.
and no service on sats.
i thot it was only my sat tt is freed up.
i realised, i'm super free nw. yepp, i really am. LOL! :P
super happY! can stay home and do stuff, and clear stuff, and do housework! HAHA.
and save money!

i need to draw closer to GOD.
2009 has been said to be a difficult year for all of us...
but my encouragement is..
PRESS ON! stay close to PAPA GOD.
be alert and be very careful!
weigh ur priorities!
GOD should always come first!!!

SEEK YE FIRST HIS KINGDOM AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS AND ALL THE OTHER THINGS SHALL BE ADDED UNTO YOU!!!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

so dumb...

2008-12-31T01:18:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i went over to meet my bff today. and i waited so long for bbf it felt forever, i cud have jus fell aslp at the station. (i waited abt 30-40mins). and then, the dumbest thing happened, i stayed too long in the station, i cudnt tap out! -.-''

and the station guy deducted $2 from me! i was so super sad. because $2 is alot to a student. LOL! and its alrdy my last few days with student concessioN! OH WELLS. lesson learnt. next time, jus let bff wait for me instead. LOL! :P KIDDING!

and then we bought alot alot of food. almost frm everywhere lah! and you know what? BK ran out of barley!!! how could they??! LOL. oh wells. so no drinks. and we went over to bff's place to slack.

i slacked and watched tv till i fell aslp! lol. and i think i slpt quite long. i was really tired. and my best friend being my best friend, let me slp! LOL.i woke up after perspiring. i wonder how i cud ever perspire, i am always cold. anw, maybe it was the blankie's fault. anw, then i gt hungry, when i woke up, i realised my best friend was aslp too. LOL!. then we grabbed some food. pasta!! HAHA. yummY! abit, cheesy tho. but still nice! THANKS BFF! (((: [you know you're the best because you're always there for me!]

and watched more tv, looked at photos and home sweet home! HEHE. (((:
i feel i super long nv slack with my best friend le! it was really good! (((:
thanks for spending today with me even tho u're like so busy! HAHA!!! :P

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

BENJY!!!

2008-12-29T01:02:00.005+08:00

helloooO! this post is dedicated to BENJAMIN WONG!!!

the moments i have with ben! LOL.

HAHA. ben, if u ever get to read this... thanks for everything!

thanks for being there.

thanks for all the nonsense chats.

thanks for all the cheem, intelligent chats.

thanks for all the encouragement and prayers and all!

thanks for all the photos!!!! HAHAHAHA.

we both know how much we love taking pictures eh? LOL!

thanks BENJYY!!!! ((((:

i cant wait to see you tomorrow!!! (((:

in HIS love.

with love.
CHARI ** ((:

2008-12-29T00:53:00.003+08:00

feeling random! HEHE.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i'm gonna miss all of you!

2008-12-29T00:43:00.003+08:00

oh goodness me! jus as i'm reflecting and thinking, i miss you guys so much alrdy!

there's been like so much shared and all, the understanding of each other is jus so different.

it's like we know so much abt each other and stuff..

ooh, it really brings tears to my eyes. :((

but, i also want to embrace 2009 with love and hope. ((:

HEHE, i'm super happy to have marcus ng and ernest back! :P

hopefully, we will grow even more together.

and learn together as we mature tog! (((:

press on everyone!

STILL LOVE EaCH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!

you are all precious to me!

loving you ppl always,

chari jiejie! ((:

HEHE!!!

BLESSED CHRISTMAS

2008-12-29T00:17:00.004+08:00

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

As I Await...

2008-12-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

heyyy (((:

haven been able to update because there has been so many things going oN!

anw, first and foremost, BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!

HAHA. might post some random photos later. but i realised, i didnt manage to take photos with everyone. and waiting for sus to send me christmas photos.

i had a great christmas daY! :P really enjoyed myself alot alot. HEHE.
thanks guys for coming over! and playing polar bear and not killing me! LOL!
HEHE.

and i'm truly very excited for the new year 2009! i believe GOD has HIS BIG plans ready awaiting me as i patiently wait for HIM to reveal it to me. LOL! :P
i'm so super excited. with SERVE '09 and shifting to PP.
and for waiting patiently.
and for really gonna do new things and to serve GOD in an even greater way! :P
and and, NELGIN's wedding! i'm so super excited lahh! :P HEHE.
and i have to, have to, MUST TO, LOSE WEIGHT. lol.

and 2009 is gonna be challenging but i'm TRUSTING in GOD. (((:
that HE's gonna see me thru.
and anw, i'm super excited because i'm GONNA meet BENJY TMR!!!!! ((((((((:
i haven seen benjy in such a long time!!!!!!!! i truly, really, miss catching up with my SCs! :P

so happY! and guess where we're having dinner? LOL.
HEHE.
anw, yeppp. (((:

IN Christ Alone, i put my trust.
Living my life for HIM.
YOU. and only YOU Lord.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

now i know

2008-12-21T23:31:00.001+08:00

now i know why pastor G says i need to talk to my outside friends as well.
it's impossible not to have any outside friends.
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT, i really miss all the real, FUN ppl i've got outside POINT.COMM.
:((( girls, i miss u like crazy!!
OH ZHIRA!!!! i got so much to say, i need some sanity!!
and i miss you so much. i miss going school with U!

PUNITHA!?!?!??!!
where in the world are you? i wonder if u wud ever read this.
but i truly miss u alot.
BEN, it's time to crap and TALK nonSENSE and ANYTHING tog!
i'm shifting end of this yr!
do u still remember i'm SUPPOSED TO BE UR NEW BESTFRIEND??!

oh arfie! i miss you too! and DDIN!
all the crapping and laughing and jus lazing ard, doing silly things tog.
and all the PHOTOS!!! OOOH.

sighs. i miss sch so much now.
now, i know, i shud have gone to sch more often. LOL! :P
oh wells, we need to have a reunion soon OKAY?!

zhira, when are we going on a date? :P
i really miss U! ((((:

oh wells.
now i know.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

oh wells.

2008-12-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

heyy.

i'm so tired.
haven been online in days.

its getting so weird..
that i dunno how to handle it.
or dunno how to go abt handling it.

and it's happening too fast.
i hate to see attitudes shown and stuff.
super tempted to give back a SUCKY attitude
because i'm MERELY REFLECTING WHAT YOU PPL SHOWN ME.

then again, i dun.
why?
because, would JESUS DO THAT? (WWJD)
so, i swallow it down, and PRAY.
honestly, i think that's the best method.
and for practicality, i walk away to breathe so i wont lash at anyone.

it's getting frustrating to see disunity and ppl splitting up.
i dun wanna all of us to split up and form different cliques.
the larger in numbers we grow, there'll be bound to have differences and cliques.
but we must all remember that we're handpicked by GOD.
each and every one of us to be placed together to grow.
as iron sharpens iron.
((:

my prayer is that we'll be united.
and stay united no matter what.
and that we'll all be able to have the same vision and mindset
in order to steer our youth ministry into the right direction!!

GOD BLESS

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

ZOO-Y!!

2008-12-17T14:58:00.002+08:00

heyy!!! (((:

i went to the zoo yesterday with my youth! HEHE.
let's see, there was...
carissa, alissa, cassandra, alex, marcus ng, yj,
gab, sus, mel, me, chinyi, jedi, kai, jaron. ernest.
did i miss anyone out? i'm sorry if i did. HAHA.
so many ppl.
but we managed to catch all the shows.

and i totally love philip the sealion! HAHHA.
super cute la.
and super smart.
the elephant one was a little boring.

anw, i woke up super early la.
and yj was late. BUT...

anw, then when we like finally reached the KIDZ world, we kinda had to leave.
i totally was won over by the little ponies.
and i wanted to pat them. but, they wudnt walk over to me.

then, we had to walk all the way back to the main entrance.
i was extremely excited to go to the ZOO!
it's been such a long time since i was there and all. :P

ooh. and the monkeys were cute. HEHE.
took a few photos only.
have to consolidate from ernest, and sus.

after zoo, most ppl went on a food tour because jem and glow came to meet us.
and thus, there was like not enuff space to squeeze 16 ppl into one car.
so, i decided to back out. (graciously)
HAHA. serious. i was quite okay in not going.
i wasnt like unhappy or anything. but maybe yj felt abit bad that not everyone cud go. but i was okayy. LOL..

so SUS, MARCUS NG and KAI decided to follow me.
so, the 4 of us had lunch at PASTA MANIA.
and had clam chowder souP! OOOH. yummY! totally love it. HEHE.
and then went down to the dvd shop to rent 2 dvds to watch.
made with honour and hairspray! HEHE.
went over to NTUC, everything looked boring.
only got chocs and 1 bottle of spirite.

walked over to my place.
quickly, cleared a few stuff ard, poured the drinks.
pushed the chairs, and on-ed the aircon so that they wud be comfortable. LOL!

then, we finish watching while the others were still somewhere.
and then suddenly YJ told me that the whole lot of other ppl were coming.
I WAS LIKE.... OH. hmm. OKAY!

and so they came.
but the four of us waited and waited and waited.
because ernest, gwong, mel and yj only came at like 9plus lahh! ://
oh wells, started watching hairspray at 10 or 10 plus! =.=
everyone was falling aslp.

they were super comfy. can tell. LOL.
anw, and i fell aslp too. for awhile. :P

yepp. anw, i'm super tired.
so gonna rest now.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

SHOPPINGGGG!!!!

2008-12-14T21:17:00.006+08:00

heyy!!! (((:

i'm sure i've used this title before.
lol.
i love shoppinggg! it was so fuN! (((:
i went to raffles place exchange to shop! super fun!
i was all alone. but i managed to buy 2 tops and 1 bottom.
and all for just $49.20!!

i'm super proud of myself. LOL.
and i was the first customer of the day!
quite reasonable ah.
and they are pretty clothes.
and i get to wear pretty clothes tmr! HEHE.

i went to play pool today.
super ex. it wasnt even an hour
and i paid $9.80!
yes, i'm feeling the pinch.
some more i haven play enuff. LOL.
but anw, dinner was great!

thought could play mahjong, but in the end, cudnt. :(
oh wells, on xmas eve bahh!! HEHEHE!

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

anw, i just dont understand.
its been so confusing. so frustrating.
so difficult.
i jus want to be a normal girl too.
living my normal life.
but i guess, we all live a life that is full of UPS and DOWNS.
and yes, chari needs to press in.
she's gonna fast from TV!
she's gonna use all the TV watching time to pray!

i really need to pray lahh.
and i hope that you all can join me too!
it's really important to PRAY and commit our youth ministry every single day.
because everyday different ppl are going thru different things.

please be sensitive, BUT not OVERSENSITIVE.
please also ENCOURAGE and not TEAR DOWN.
i know it's not easy.
and we're all learning,
but it's a molding process.
and we just have to ask ourselves, are we willing?
are we willing to be that VESSEL for GOD to use?

i, myself am also learning,
trying my very best to master my emotions.
to manage my time and all.
trying not to invest too much feelings and time in one person.
and i've been truly blessed by this dance workshop.

and to all the YOUTH TCMers...
i really hope that you'll avail yourself to come for the WORSHIP PITSTOP!
i really think that we need to have another breakthru.
i don't just want to stay stagnant like tt.
DO YOU?

come and be blessed, refreshed. and TRANSFORMED!
AMEN?!
i really wanna encourage all of you to come!
YEP.

MATTEW 9:37-38
"The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field."

GOD has provided us with many things,
and ppl are pouring in, but are we doing what we should
such as reaching out to them?
20th dec is really a good time to invite ur friendS!

also, things here on earth that are tangible, can be SHAKABLE!
MATTEW 6:33
"Seek first HIS kingdom and HIS righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
PSALM 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord and HE will give you the desires of your heart."

continue to keep each other in prayer!
and as we walk together, fighting this battle in the spiritual realm,
always remember we're not alone,
neither are we doing all of these things for our own glory,
we're ultimately doing it for GOD.
and we want to please HIM. right?
so, put aside our differences today and start to LOVE as HE loves us.
(((:

*food for thought*
OH YES, and people not from TCMyouth, you're welcome to come join us for our WORSHIP PITSTOP.
its on 19th DECEMBER 2008, chapel hall, ground floor,
from 9AM to 4PM! (((:
hope to see many of you there!!!
AMEN? (((((((((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

JESUS, YOU're my best friend

2008-12-13T01:26:00.002+08:00

heyyy!!! (((:

GOD has been so so so good.
so faithful and all! (((:

though its been a tiring and trying, and testing week,
i really thank GOD for all the things HE has done for me.
i really thank GOD the people HE placed in my life!
i really thank GOD for MELVIN. SUS. SHUYUN.
oh and BRANDON and PASTOR GERALD!
and of course my whole entire family!
my DADDY, my MUMMY.
my sister lee, and brother lee.
and of course RENA LEE and NELSON LEE!
HEHE!!

woohoo! the lee family. :P
FAMILEE. LOL. get it?
okayy okayy.

anws, DANCE conference for the past 3 days was GOOD.
ermm. i only went two days due to stuff.
but the days that i was ard.. i really think it was cool.
and fun. and good.
and i think christian is so amazing. he's so good with the flags and all.
and i made a few friends.
ppl from SALEM are SUPER NICE LAHHHH!!! LOL.
like joanna [nana] and DOT and clara. HAHA.

i'm totally exhausted.
watched them chreographed a dance.
and took videos and photos and all.

and then flew down to pp.
still had time for dnr and walked in.
played drums.
aft tt, totally drained and tired. OH WELLS.
but i thank GOD for sus.
who heard all i had to say.

and after that i felt a whole lot better.
and thank YOU everyone else who made me smile! (((:
thanks justin for not putting pressure on me today!

i had very very good fellowship in macs in pp today.!!!!
nothing, i repeat, NOTHING beats fellowshipping with my beloved YOUTH! ((((:
they're totally love and they bring a smile to my face.
their randomness and funniness.
and NONSENSE! LOL. :P

i love you all!!! so much!!!
thank yoU! ((((:

i'm super slpy. might post photos, might not.
i think i'll do it tmr.
wont be going for youth tmr!
dun miss me! LOL.
i'll see you guys on sunday! ((((:

more photos please!!!!!!!

<3

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

SUNSHINE in the rain.

2008-12-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i've finally seen sunshine in the rain! (((:
it was raining so super heavily in pp.
but i'm super happy i managed to bond with my family.
HEHE.

i went to this place called MADAM Q.
i had sirloin steak! :P
the mushroom sauce was good.
i had apple juice too.
and the mushroom soup was really good.
better than sizzlers. HEHE.
and i had oreo cheesecake.
super nice lahhh! (((((:

oh wells, my mood totally changed liao.
smile? HEH.
no more.
RARR! i'm in an irritated mood now.
its so whatever lah.
seriouslY!
no mood to blog...

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

only by GRACE

2008-12-11T01:50:00.003+08:00

heyy ((:

i think dance workshop was extremely cool today!
tho i whole time thruout super slpy. HAHA.
but i did learn a few cool moves. HAHA. (((:
and my handphone no batt right at the start of the conference.
so, which meant, no calls or sms-es for me the whole day.
but also not many when i reached home and checked.

oh wells. HAHA. i did enjoy myself.
and this guy from NEW ZEALAND preached.
his name is KEL STEINER!
he's super cool. i love his NAME! HHAHAHA.
and he called for altar call.
and i responded and he prayed over me.
really cool stuff.

GOD's really great. and HE is never CHANGING!
everything else in this world changes, BUT HIS love for us, HIS character will never change.
NEVER CHANGE!
HIS grace is sufficient for us!
HIS grace is abundant.

and i believed i made the right decision today.
i believed i said what i had to say.
i think the both of us did what is right today!
and i'm glad it took place.
everything that has a start needs to have an end.
it's not the way you start it that really counts,
but the way that you end it.
YEP.

a closure.
finally.
i know it hurts.
deep down.
and i'm sorry.
it's something you've got to grapple with.
and it's something
i know will make you stronger than you alrdy are.
you've gt a beautiful heart.
and you're really nice and thoughtful.
i pray that you'll be able to move on with life.

oooh. and i finally found the tune again to the song "FALL"
totally love it.
wonder when who will play it for me on the guitar!
HEHE.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

TAGGED -.-

2008-12-07T23:39:00.004+08:00

okayy, i got tagged by my dearest genegene. so i'm doing it because i got nothing to do and my hair is wet. and for ppl to know me better. LOL!.

here it goes...

1. Do you have secrets?
HAHA. i guess so. :P everyone does right? :P

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
HAHA. sure. why not? age doesnt matter. ((:

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
for eternity. ((:

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
HEHE. buy my AUDI, and a house in PP. and hide the rest of the money under my pillow. :P

5. What will you be doing tomorrow?
GO GEOK HOCK'S HOUSE WITH MY FRIENDS!!!! (((:

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone. it is always more blessed to give than to receive. ((:

7. What do you love doing?
LOVE. i love loving others. ((: lol. okay, alot of stuff i guess. sleeping, drumming. tanning. pool!!! (((:

8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i would hope he's attached to me!! LOL. hehe.

9. Is there anything that make you extremely happy?
SURE. ((: many things. if my wish list is fulfilled, if we can move to pp. and CORN! LOADS OF IT! HAHAH. TRUCKLOADS! til i can swim in it. :P

10. Do you secretly dislike anyone without them knowing?
haha. i think it wud be quite obvious if i dislike you.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
HEHE. all slim and pretty. hopefully married and still serving the LORD. ((:

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
most important, isnt it only one? is GOD considered people? LOL. okay,
here it is, it is GOD number 1.
then family.
then _______.
and my friends. (((:
all important lah. HAHA.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
GOD.
living life pleasing to HIM. ((:
living according to HIS will.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
HAHA. i rather be married and rich. :P LOL!

15. What is your favourite colour?
do u really not know?
PURPLE AND ORANGE! :P

16. If you are attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
HAHA. i pray it wont happen. ((:

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
hmm. i'll try my best to forgive as the LORD forgave me.

18. What would you want to tell someone you like?
ermm.. that i love you? LOL.
(what kind of a question is this? LOL!)

19. What if you caught your bf/gf doing stuffs (only GOD knows what) with other girls/guys?
goodness. hmm. pray that that day will NEVER EVER come!

20. Do you believe that there is 'Love At First Sight'??
hmm. nope. i always think those stuff dont last.
i go for inner beauty and definitely character. ((:
must be steady wor!!! LOL..

okayy genegene. are you happy with my answers?? LOL!!! i answered all wor! and my hair is dryer. LOL! can sleep le. HAHA!!! thanks for tagging me! ((((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

p.s: all of my answers above are spontaneous and wasnt thought thru. HAHA. (((:
but if u really want to know my thots and stuff, and want serious and "down-to-earth" answers, come look for me personally, more than willing to share. ((: HEHE.

pool + lots of laughs!

2008-12-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

heyyy!! (((:

HAHA. i had a whole lot of fun today!
1st time i play pool play until $50 over!!!! -.-''
power seh!! LOL!
well done guys!

i went with esmond, mel, gab, marcus koh, yj, kaixiang.
glow met us slightly later. but jus in time to play. HEHE.
and then we played for like almost 4hrs lah!
SUPER SHIOK!
whoa, i super long nv play pool liao!
it feels so goooooood! ((((:

and marcus koh is extremely funnY!
he kept making yj laugh until yj cudnt pocket a ball.
and i didnt know whether to laugh along or frown.
but i ended up laughing most of the time! HAHA.
i wonder if gab really studied. HEH.

and anw, lunch was good. ((:
SIZZLERS!! WOOTS.
super long nv eat le.
but i didnt eat the icecream!
i had loads of corn tho. shud have gone 2nd rd of jus corn!

FINALLY GOT TO DRINK MY CORN SOUP! :P
HEHEE!!!!

but i didnt take photos at all today because my phone no battery.
finally for once, can charge it properly!

anw, went to my favourite coffeeshop in yishun to eat dinner.
i had xi yang cai tang. but this one not nice.
and i had HA GAO!!! WOOTS! YUMMY! *slurps*
HEHE.

then i bus-ed back.
859 with marcus koh, without melee. HEH.
this time rd, it was all different.
HAHA.
and we so long nv take frm yishun til we were contemplating which busstop to alight.
and then when we were approaching my busstop, we realised, its the correct side!!! HAHAHA.

oh wells, u guys prolly dun really understand what i saying. HEHE.
anw, i really had fun today.

and i think sermon was good. YEP. ((:
very timely!

anw, in a nutshell!
PATIENCE!!! (((:
OBEDIENCE.
LOVE! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

GEOK HOCK's HOUSE TMR!! (((:

wwooootsss. busy month

2008-12-04T19:10:00.001+08:00

hey ((:

didnt really get to post today.
i'm extrmemely hungry.
so this post will be SHORT.

i got so many things to do, with no time at all.
because certain ppl are only free at certain time of the day,
and i'm always busy then.

oh wells.
loads of planning,
loads of meetings.

thanks all for praying for me last night.
was the worst night ever.
but i'm healed!
IN HIS NAME! (((:

thanks.
gtg.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

p,s: will post photos when i get frm jem. ((:

weddings.

2008-12-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

hellO!

i love weddings. i think its so much fun and it is so interesting.
HAHA. i've never been a jie mei before.
so it's kinda of my first time being a jie mei for my sister. LOL
(tho i'm alrdy her sister. GET IT? LOL)

it is so much planning. this is gonna make me lose some marbles along the way.
HAHA. so ppl, get ready to bear with me!
nt that i'll rant at u, but that, i might be slow in responding.
HAHA.

i'm like planning 4 things concurrently lahH!
LOL! with the help of others of coz. HAHA. :P
if i were to do it myself, i might jus peng. LOL.

anw, wedding coming, means must lose weight faster!
if nt how to fit into clothes and look good? LOL.
anw, it's for the benefit of my own health as well.
LOL!!!

more exercise, more jogging, more walking.
more laughing, more talking, LESS BINGING.
LOL!. MORE SLEEP. (((:

oh wells, 1 month more!!! (((:

its so fast, the yr is coming to an end!!! AGAIN!!! oh myy!
it's been such a roller coaster ride this yr.
i've once again experienced GOD in a much more mightier way that i've never before.
it's such a wonderful feeling to know that there's someone up there who loves you so very much all the same!!! ((((:

THANK YOU PAPA GOD! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

HAHA

2008-12-02T00:22:00.001+08:00

heyy (((:

i'm back! okay and everything! LOL!

finallY! i finally know. i finally feel better..

totallY! i just spent $40 over within 2 hours!!! HAHA.

but i really had fun! HAHA.

i met shuyun for lunch at pasta mania!!

i finally got to drink soup! HAHAH! :P

and, i finally got to shoot hoops! ooh, chasing animals were fun!

and driving was fun too! :P

and, i got my specs le!! LOL! i might wear later. HAHA.

and i confirm everyone will gasps! LOL!

but i think i look super toot! HEHE.

will post a photo later. HEHE.

anw, and i'm not giving uP!! ((:

because i really really want this.
give time.!!

PATIENCE!!!!

psalms 130:5!!!

((((:

okayy. corn time! HAHA.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

THE PROCESS.

2008-11-27T15:24:00.002+08:00

HAHA. act cute, ROUND face! LOL!

HAHA. at aunty melissa's. SHE'S SO GOOD. and she was praying in tongues while cutting my hair! my hair's annointed!!! HAHAA..

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

good talk.

2008-11-27T14:44:00.002+08:00

hellO!

the bbq yesterday was great. tho i guess i only had 1 hotdog and a few satays, the marshmallow was YUMMY!
good thinking ernest! (((: HAHA.

oh yes, guys, u owe me 50cents each! HEH. i'm nt being calculative. but chari has no money and needs to save too! RIGHT? HAHA. so pls pass to me when u see me on sat or fri okay? thanks.

and ernest, when u wanna take back ur mat and shirt? LOL!

anw, i think the kids had fun yesterdaY! haha. i got to play my netball again. but without esmond on my team! and he really can jump lahh! i didnt have ernest, yj and esmond lehh!! but, i had kaixiang and aloy! LOL! in the end, i change team.

and there was this pri 3 boy there, his name is jonathan, and he has a brother andrew! lol. jon is super cute! reminds me of my own cussie, jon boy! LOL. and he's SUPER intelligent. andrew is super quiet, great ball sense! HAHA. i had him on my team too! he is a GREAT winger. with a good striker like kai and aloy. POWER ah! HAHA. and i had this really zai defence guy. i think his name is nicholas! HAHA. amazing!! he's really good. good ball sense too! HAHA.

i think i really love camps and orientations and such! HAHA!! :P this kind of one off ting is my forte man!! HAHAHA. and anw, i didnt managed to take photos!!! :((( oh wells. mel says he wants to take photo with me coz of my hair! HEH! LOL! i know la, i look like tweety bird now!!! HAHA. but cute mahhh!! HAHAHA! must give that cute face!!! HAHAHAHA!!! :P

i really got it at a good deal la. (((: thank GOD for the provisioN!!! (((:

okayy. funny hair photos time!!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

relationships.

2008-11-26T00:38:00.003+08:00

hellO! today's topic is about relationships.

i duno how much you guys know abt relationships or have had experience.
but to me, i always see relationships as something that needs to be built, and it is to last a lifetime!
but, that's not always necessarily the case. because that's too ideal.
a relationship with no ups and downs, is not a REAL relationship.
because 2 people, who are individuals and made special and different in their own ways will BOUND to clash. and in a relationship, both parties have to give and take.
both parties got to understand and be sensitive to one another.
to be there for each other and to support each other.
to be each other's pillar of strength.

i really want a relationship with a special someone who is GOD-sent and who can remain a blessing and not become a totally different person once we're together.
i want someone who i can serve GOD with.
i want someone who truly loves GOD.
i want someone who would be willing to really go out of his way to do something for me just to put a smile on my face and not just say it. [ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS].

i guess, we need to understand the big word : COMMITMENT
what does commitment really means?
it is a promise.
an involvment
a duty
a responsibility
a bond.
and it can also be a burden.

it all depends on how we view commitment.
and true intimacy can only be enjoyed where there is FULL commitment.
and at this age, we prolly shud be looking to place our commitment somewhere else.
like serving GOD.
studying.
serving at home.

RELATIONSHIPS can also drain.
but i guess, then again, it depends on each individual and how they react to their partner, and how they try to build their relationship and on what grounds.

my boyfriend definitely must:
1) LOVE GOD. MY GOD.
2) RESPECT ME
3) LOVE ME
4) BE A GENTLEMAN
5) HAVE A SENSITIVE HEART.

that's all i ask, whatever else that comes with him, its a BONUS! ((:

and i agree that i've got to learn to not just adore him for his good points, but learn to appreciate his weakness and complement him to become whole. it's not easy. and i tell u, GOD is super good at putting two people together so that they can mold each other to become who HE wants us to become! HAHAH. get it? confused? LOL.

oh yes, and i guess i cant stand guys who keep everything to themselves and think they're so super noble because they dun want you to worry. but then again, i guess, GOD made most guys like that. and they prolly dun understand that girls want to be part of their lives that much. and want to be the one to share in their burdens and all. and how it hurts them when their own special someone turns to someone else. but then again, their girlfriends need to be ZAI enuff to handle their problems and churn it back to GOD ultimately.

oh wells, there's always 2 sides of the coin i guess.

okayy, i guess there's been alot of things going on at home and outside. and with friends and all.
which i'm nt exactly in liberty to spill it out here.
that's exactly why i sent out an urgent prayer rally last night.

i think the bottom line is that, we got to really build our own relationship with GOD first and learn to trust HIM first before we can learn to trust others.
and we need to be very prayerful.
because the devil is doing everything he can to attack us and to bring us down.
and we need to hold up our shield of faith and be more than conquerers!!! (((:
IN GOD WE HAVE THE VICTORY!!!
AMEN? (((:

alrights peeps. chari's sleepy! continue to press on! and PRAY ya? dun give uP! GOD IS DOING SOMETHING REALLY BIG IN OUR LIVES!!! (((:

hugs all! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

((((((: randomness

2008-11-25T11:52:00.016+08:00

SUNDAY - UNIFORM DAY! ((:

SATURDAY- BOWLING + FELLOWSHIP = LOVE!! ((:

COOL EH? HEH.

i'm COOL TOO! :P

GEOKHOCK.CHARI. LOL!
he looks like a cartoon character! HAHA!

ERNEST HAS A NICE SMILE! :P

19th NOVEMBER 08 - SENTOSA!

that's all folks!! HAH!

in HIS love.

CHARI ** ((:

PAIN.PAIN.PAIN

2008-11-24T11:02:00.001+08:00

heyyy (((:

i'm in pain physically but happy on the inside! HAHA!

the joy of the LORD, is my strength! :P
anw, SAT, i had a good time with my siblings and the young one, JOEL.
LOL! i had breakfast with them at their place.
and it was good talk with hiah hiah while waiting for the food to come! HAHA.
it's very interesting. and i really gain alot alot of insight frm my brother because he's just so good at finding loopholes! HAHAH!
anw, i thank GOD for the things said and done.
NOW, it's time to pray about it.

oh yes, and of course there was bowling!! HAHA.
i'm super tired and in pain because of that!
my whole entire left side is like paralysed lahh!
and my right shoulder feels dislocated because of my EXTREMELY HEAVY CRUMPLER BAG!
but my crumpler is amazing. can squeeze in alot of things!
HAHA. anw...

SUNDAY- total waste of time. LOL!
the guys had their soccer training as usual.
i played awhile of netball.
played saboteur. full strength- 10 ppl! -.-''
then read thru melvin's stats notes.
tried to remember some concepts.
played taboo.
played bridge.
time to go!
dinner at KP.
went to sengkang to pass something to my friend.
and came home feel totally drained.
finally got my 10hours of sleep!!!! SHIOK!! (((:
HAHAHA!

maybe tt's why i'm in a good mood now.
and i need to:

1) wash clothes
2) keep/fold clothes
3) hang clothes.
4) sweep the floor
5) eat breakfast
6) pack my table
7) go jogging
8) brush up on drumming
9) study for BASIC THEORY TEST!!! :P
10) CATCH up with ALOT of ppl.
- gerald. carissa. my mahana darlinggs!. vincent.
11) VERY IMPORTANTLY, LOSE 10 kg!! YES.
and i need to plan my dates now tt i got so much things to do.
alot of jams!! ((:
which is good! time to brush up skill! HAHAH.
and i got to remember who is free when! GOODNESS! LOL!.

anyway, thanks everyone for all the prayers and encouragements. and hugs!!
A lvls is finally done!

i need to get a job, anyone who has any lobangs pls let me know! THANK YOU! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

FREEDOM BUT.....

2008-11-22T01:42:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i'm extremely hyper and happy and all now.

because: A LEVELS has finally come to an end!!! ((((: HAHAHA!!!! :D:D:D:D

i didnt get to slp at all. and have survived on 4hrs of slp!! i dun believe myself. no wonder i sick. ANW, i'm feeling really negative and all. i prayed. i told the devil to get behind me.

**
i didnt mean to be like that all the time. i didnt ask for the devil to attack me.
i tried so hard and i am still trying to really live a pure, blameless and righteous life for GOD.
and its not easy. not easy at all.

i really need support at this time. but it seems that i've drained you out in the process.
i'm sorry.
i never intended to. i really needed someone to walk thru with me.
i know GOD's with me, and thanks for trying to spur me on and praying for me and all.

i know i'm nt the easiest person to handle or talk to.
and you prolly now know i'm NOT all that nice eh?
i'm sorry to let you know, i'm HUMAN too.
i'm NOT perfect. and i got times where i'm down.
maybe its been often for this past week.
BUT, i'm nt like that all the time.
you shud know, i'm usually cheerful and bubbly and all!! ((:

i'm really not trying to defend myself or what, but i think you should know...
1) A lvls isnt the easiest thing to handle.
2) having to settle meals myself isnt my forte.
3) NOT being able to be with my family is difficult.

i need to let go steam too u know? and if u cant handle it, let me know, i'd do my best not to throw it at you.
i know i'm sarcastic and mad (as in crazy) almost all the time.
and i'm sorry.

life is full of ups and downs.
and GOD placed every one of the ups and downs in my life to mold and to shape me.
and every single one, i've to go thru it!!
in order to become a better person.
anw, i'm sorry.

i really treasure you alot.
and i love you.

i'm sorry if i ever hurt you in anyway.
I'M SORRY!
**
okayy, all of that above, is dedicated to a very special friend whom have been there for me ever since since. THANK YOU!!!

anw, i really thank GOD i went for cell.
pretty cool.
it was at jem's place.
my first time at his house. HAHA.
pretty... HMMMM.... WAHHH! LOL.
and his room was... HAHAHA! HMMM. LOL
and cell was good.
about faith. and just the thing i needed to hear. and it was like all so timely!

HEART FAITH or HEAD FAITH? HEH.
HEART for me!! ((: <3

talked alot to sus. and prayed.
jem drove us back. HAHA. yes, he passed his driving!! (((:
drove his daddy's HUGE car.

and i had B&J's with SUS!
best thing ever!!!!
some cheesecake thingy. :P (cant remember the name)

its 2am and the rain isnt falling. (LOL, tt's if u know the song)
anw, and i'm extremely tired.

OH YES, BEN AND RENA bought me MEATBALLS and chicken WINGS from IKEA!!!!! ((((:
thank you hiah hiah and soh soh!!! super yummY!
filled with love. thanks (((:

okayy. gtg.
bowling tmr. HAHAH.
i'm feeling so much better!! ((:

thanks everyone for praying for me.
exams are finally over.
but pls continue to pray for me.
coz i'm still having stomach cramps.
THANK YOU once again! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LORD, i REALLY want to live for YOU!

hmmm....

2008-11-21T01:26:00.001+08:00

heyy! ((:

i've only got 5 mins to blog. because its extremely late. and i need to sleep!

anw, i went to see doctor today. and he said its stomach flu. because i'm aching everywhere. so pls continue to keep me in prayer. and tt i wont get gastric and all. coz tmr's a 3 hr paper. and i really need to sit for it. if not take As for what?!??!! and i need my full 3hours because trust me, 3 hrs for lit is never enuff.

and it's my fault for not studying earlier. but i really tried bit by bit here and there. but i've been down on my bed for 2 days. yeah, and i shudnt have played the restaurant game til 6am. i know! OH WELLS. i'm extremely tired. and i need to sleep now!

and shuyun came over to study with me. but i tink i distracted her more than we studied. but i only started studying at 11.30. HEH. and its alrdy 1.28. and i'm giving up. as in, i gonna continue to study tmr morning. YEP. haven packed bag. HEH.

okayy. i gtg.

pls keep me in prayer! thanks (((:

freedom here i come!

use me as YOU will LORD.
I WANT TO LIVE FOR YOU.
I LOVE YOU!!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

THANK GOD FOR DADDY.

2008-11-20T00:35:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i have been having alot of problems recently. okayy, maybe not exactly problems, but stuff that has been burdening me. ALOT. and i guess, it comes because it's thru all these stuff that i learn and become even more mature and can exercise GRACE on others as well. also, to learn to LOVE, like how GOD loves.

anw, i really want to thank GOD for daddy, because this few days, spending time with daddy over dinner and everything has really been good. talking abt the family, friends, people in my life, and about the economy really is good.

and i thank GOD for HEALING DADDY! (((: HE truly is Jehovah Rophe, the GOD who HEALS!!!! ((: and thank GOD that daddy is so much better. and i can talk to him and all.

really thank GOD for all the blessings in my life.
my family.
my friends.
wonderful ppl like SUS!!! WHOA, thanks gal, you've really been a great support! ((:
and for a beautiful place to live in.
for a wonderful life
and of course,
i thank GOD for YOU! ((:
someone who listens and prays with me..
yepp. THANK YOU ALL! ((:

anw, i haven been feeling good. been having diarrhea the whole entire day. and with off and on fever. and low appetite and all. so pls pray for me okay? coz i stil gt 1 more paper on friday.
the next thing is pray that i can get a job soon, so that i gt income coming in. coz i've been really really hard up. with all the birthdays and all! WHOA, no money! SERIOUSLY!!!

i've to stay away frm macs and the high end restaurants until next yr. i can only eat at coffeeshops. and i think i wont be going out that often ba. even if i do, it wud prolly be to swim, or to walk in a park or something.

anw, and i wont be ordering drinks coz in this way, i can save. ((: yepp.
really need to save. because the economy now is really not doing good.
and i'm in a crisis!!
i really never felt so broke in my whole entire life before.
and i dun wanna ppl to treat me and stuff, because it drains their resources as well.
so i'm jus gonna scrimp and save as much as i can.
i believe GOD will see me thru! (((:

alrights, that's all i got to say.

there's this someone out there, that i know GOD has made for me, and has made me for, and i know GOD has HIS plans for us. and i shall be patient and wait. ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

ICE CREAM CHEFS

2008-11-18T14:32:00.002+08:00

HELLO! (((:

i haven been bloggin for a few days because i've been so exhausted and so busy! LOL. no time to sit down in front of my lappy to blog. oh wait, did i blog the other night? HAHA.

anw, yesterday was SHUYUN's bday! yes, my best friend, my girlfriend, my sister, and my darlingg shuyun! HAHA.

although we had plans to go down to sentosa, it was cancelled in the end. and she brought me to a place at east coast road. ICE CREAM CHEFS! whoa, i tell u, the ice cream there is so goood! can fight with island creamY! HAHAH. but the place very hard to go. its like behind st pat's sku! -.-''

and we alighted wrongly and in the end, took cab there. HAHA. upon arrival we saw two SIBERIAN HUSKIES! ooohhh, cute to the max. and patted them! HAHA. do u believe it? CHARI PATTED DOGS! BIG DOGS! lol. yep, no longer afraid of dogs i guess. :P [thanks to someone and his adorable/obedient dog]

walked into the shop, jus nice, had a table for us (the place quite small) i tink if 10 of us go, the whole place full le. YEP. (that's the indoors lah, tt is.) anw, shuyun had 1 scoop of vanilla beanie thingy, and choc. i had 1 scoop of watermelony and honeydew!!! (((: WHOA, i tell u, tt's the best thingy ever! seriously. with the mix in of maltesers and MARS bar! shiok!!!! (((: after As, i wanna go again! HAHA. and on tuesdays, there're free mix-ins (mix in is like topping) yeah, but their mix ins are a whole wide range and even have cookies frm famous amos! HAHAHA.

then we sat there, talk abit, laugh abit, took ALOT of photos, and then went down to suntec to shop abit. HAHA, and then went to KENNY ROGERS!!!! i finally got to eat mac and cheese and corn niblets! i LOVE corn niblets! to the max of the max of the max!!!!!!! hahaha. and took more photos. but that one was abit rushed. coz i thot she had to meet her sister earlier for dinner. but in the end, her sister was late. HEH.

and the rest of the night was pretty sleepless for me. kinda too noisy to slp. and mayb i nt used to the pillow. HAHA. it was both a fun and scary experience yesterday. HAHA!!

thanks gal for allowing me to spend ur bday with u! hope u like the present. and... you're most welcomed! HAHAHA.

pictures another time ya? :P

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

NO MONEY

2008-11-16T22:49:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.

okayy. i'm officially broke!! ://///

SERIOUSLY broke. i dun even have 10bucks in my account! -.-''

i've never been this broke before. from now on is to save money! :/// like really must stop spending.

i guess i know how it all began, but, i willingly paid for it all, so nt gonna complain now. just more discipline, less spending, less cravings, more prayer!! HAHAHA. :P

alrights, i'm really tired. 5 days to freedoM! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i'm missing you.

2008-11-14T03:20:00.005+08:00

nothing beats hanging out with the SMARTEST/FUNNIEST PPL ON EARTH!

heyy ((:

goodness me. i really do miss them alot alot alot. and i miss you alot. really. yes you, my SCs, BAND mates... GOODNESS, what would life had been like without all of you??!

do u remember that photo?! on the day we worked so super hard, in heels and all, standing, smiling and ushering the whole day and all we wanted was some aircon but we gt locked out instead?! haha. yeah, tt's Calvin, mich, ben, jenna, carolyn and me (left to right) being locked out of the library.

oh and i so miss ruixiang and nizam and weiteck. and all my percussionists! OH MYY!! all the nonsense talks. and all the laughters, the non stop laughter and the jokes and the crying together. goodness, i will nv forget them. and i can never forget u! (((: life without each and everyone of you would be.... i dunno.

yes, and financial times, i miss you. i miss you so so much! seriously, no one reads news to me anymore, no one updates me on current issues. and no one sends me home anymore. i miss you and all the fun, happy times we spent together. HAHA.

i miss having fun with friends. like crazy, non stfiled friends. HAHA. but i guess i lost them. :( as life in MI is drawing to a close, i would really like to say a BIG THANK YOU to ALL who have played a part in my life, whether jus being my classmate or my best friend or jus being someone i worked with, THANK YOU! for all the fun and sharing and joy u've brought into my life.

i feel so nostalgic. HAHA. so much for i wont miss MI. i sure miss TOH TUCK! i miss TT like crazy! seriously. i tink its the nicest place on earth to take pictures. i love those pictures. (((: and i wanna say, i love nicole, hazel, marilyn, jan, hsiang lin! without u ppl in my 1st yr of MI, i would not have made it til today and wouldnt have stayed on. HEH. tho we drifted apart in the 3 yrs here. i will nv forget ur friendship. thank U! ((:

i should go buy financial times. heh. i really miss my financial times.

oh wells. sleeping time. zzzzzzzzz.

in HIS love.

CHARI ** ((:

a walk in the rain

2008-11-12T18:08:00.001+08:00

heyy ((:

i had a walk in the rain today.
its storming right now.
and i feel like getting out of the house.
i'm moody.
and i dun like the rain
it makes me emo.

i thot a few thots about....
and realised alot of stuff.
walking in the rain brought back alot of memories!
oh wells.

its over now.

two more papers to go!
you can do it chari!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

NO FEAR, GOD IS HERE!

2008-11-11T17:57:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i had an afternoon paper today! ((: ECONS PAPER 2.
heh. it started at 2pm. and the chief examiner was hilarious lahh!

EXAMINER: i heard many of you didnt bring your NRIC/PASSPORT. i can bar you from the exam if i feel like it you know?
chari (thinking to herself): if he FEELS like it. OH MYY! -.-''
[after a while]
EXAMINER: okayy, we'll follow the clock on the right, even tho both clocks are synchronized. and we will start exactly.... at... 2!

EVERYONE in the hall: flipping paper sound...
EXAMINER: eh eh eh!! HAVEN 2 lahh! who ask you to turn the paper?!
chari (thinking to herself): GOODNESS! this guy really got humour! already so nervous for econs stil play this kind of joke on us! -.-
other ppl in the hall: laughing/scoffing. HEH.

anw, that guy was funny lah seriously. he kinda set the mood for the paper. HAHA.
i was like extremely slpy on my way for the paper. ZHIRA was telling me she was slpy too. and that like i haven exactly study finish. HAHAHAHA.

but, GOD is good. and HE is VERY, EXTREMELY faithfuL! (((:
really didnt need to fear because GOD was there with me all thruout the paper! HAHA.
i did 1 micro question, 2 macros. BECAUSE, when i flipped the paper, i was like, forget it lah, i'm gonna walk out nw.
BUT, i remained in there because i slowly re-read the questions again. and kept reminding myself i cant read too long!! so i had a rough idea of what i was gonna do. i decided to do question 4 first. so i did that. it was one full 25marks essay. on actual and potential economic growth. thank GOD i read RJC's prelim answer scheme and read economic growth this morning! HEH! SO COOL LAHH! :P

then i did question 6 next. it was abt trade and then part b was BOP. HEH. okayy, thank GOD i read trade this morning toO! and i read the FTAs and stuff. WHOA, GOD is really GOOD LAHHH!!! :P and and, i managed to finish that, stared hard at my question 3 (micro) and then, started to define, and i super happy, coz my thots began to flow and i managed to finish it! and i was writing intro of part b and conclusion of part a at the same time lahH!

tho i didnt exactly finish part b, i wasnt tt sad, becoz it was balanced enuff, and i'm sure they will know i know my stuff. (((: HAHAH. so i'm super happy. because my time management really improved ALOT! thanks ruth! ((: i really really must thank HER! :P HAHA.

tomorrow's the case-studies. HEH. see how it goes. :P

btw, market structure and price discrimination didnt come out. as in, got market structure la, but nt the kind i thot wud come out. HAHA. and the questions all very vague and broad. alot of defining of scope to do. so.. yep, i think they'll moderate it UPWARDS!

seriously, i think this yr, A lvls, really very tough!!! last yr papers were all so easy. i haven asked the sci or business ppl how's their papers lah, but as far as ARTS ppl are concerned, its been tough! HAHA. BUT THANK GOD STILL! ((((:

alrights, hungry me needs to eat!

IN HIS LOVE.
CHARI ** ((:

this is gonna be interesting...

2008-11-10T19:46:00.003+08:00

HAHA! jus decided i would just do it. went to alissa's blog for a visit and i found... THIS.

QUIZ:

1. SUS
2. JEM
3. GLOW
4. SHUYUN
5. GABBY
6. MEL
7. ALISSA
8. BEN
9. ZHIRA
10. ERNEST

how did you meet 4?
haha. at the lift on the first day of sch? :P [sec sku]

what would you do if you never met 1?
i think, i wouldnt be who i am today and wont be where i am too!! :P

what if 2 and 9 dated?
HAHAA. i think i will laugh til i drop. which is so totally impossible! HAHA.

will 6 & 7 date?
HAHAHHAA. i seriously dunno man! if it's GOD's plans for them to be together. LOL. i've got no idea if they actually have feelings for each other. LOL! :P [ahem ahem!]

describe 3
HAHA. do i have to? LOL, funny. still needs time to mature. ((:

describe 7
HAHA. nice nice! sweet, pretty, good at netball! (((:

do you know any of 1's family members?
HAHA. of course, her whole family comes to church. LOL.

what would you do if 8 confesses HE/SHE likes you?
HE doesnt like me, i'm sure HE loves me! of coz he does. HE's my big brother and i am his little sister! HAHA! ((: so, i will continue to bask in his love for me! ((:

what language does 5 speak?
LOL, gibberish! HAHA. no lah, ENGLISH. :P

who is 9 going out with?
HAHA. someone lor. i oso dunno his name. :P

how old is 6?
17.

when was the last time you spoke to 3?
err.. yesterday?

who is 2's favourite singer?
himself i guess. LOL. i dunno. :P

would you ever date 4?
HAHAHA. not in a romantic way. but we often go on dates.! :P

would you ever date 1?
HAHA. we go on dates all the time, with the others! HAHA. :P

is 9 single?
no. didnt u jus ask me who she was dating? LOL.

would you ever be in a relationship with 7?
HAHA. our friendship as GIRL friends are as far as it can go! LOL.

school of 3?
SAS.

where does 6 live?
somewhere in SENGKANG. :P

what's the favourite thing of 5?
hmm.. GOD i hope? :P being able to "AH BOO" us early in the morning. LOL.

have u seen 2 naked?
goodness, that would be such a sin! half naked yes tho.

next 5 ppl to do this quiz?
i dunno. coz i dunno who would actually do it. HEH. nt gonna tag. :P

haha, this is weird, must key in 10 names but i didnt get to say anything abt ernest! Hmmm. so unfair! HAHA. anw, this was jus to de-stress. back to studyinggg! (((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

PEACE.

2008-11-10T19:14:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i'm back! HAHA. all recharged, and happy and everything. and i thank GOD for lifting my burdens! (((:

i got a few verses i wanna share with all of you!

"Live in harmony with one another. DO NOT be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. DO NOT be conceited.
DO NOT repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is RIGHT in the eyes of everybody.
If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at PEACE with everyone.
DO NOT take revenge, my friends, but leave room for GOD's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord."
ROMANS 12:16-19

i think that V18 is very important to note! that AS FAR AS IT DEPENDS ON YOU, meaning, as long as it is something that you can control, that you can do, YOU SHOULD live at PEACE with everyone. i would encourage all of you to read from V9- V21!! ((: yepp! PRESS ON!! ((:

i know sometimes, it is inevitable to feel hurt by someone and stuff, and it's not just the person who hurt u tt has to learn to control, but you too can play your part by acknowledging you're hurt, and then make peace with the person by maybe sharing with the person, IN LOVE, how the person has hurt you. but most importantly, is forgiving that person, not bearing a grudge against that person and committing that person into GOD's loving hands and allowing GOD to deal with that person and to change that person inside out. yepp, believing that HE can! (((:

and of course, if you're the one who has hurt people, or someone, then it is only right to seek forgiveness and to make peace as well. not just seeking forgiveness from the person you've done wrong to, but also most importantly to seek forgiveness from GOD. and seeking forgiveness, and repenting means to constantly remind yourself to NOT do it again.. ((:

yepp, i myself am still in the process of learning how to control my thots and my emotions and my actions and speech. i can tell you it is not easy, but we do not want to conform to the patterns of this world and say because the world is like that, tt's why i'm like tt too. RIGHT? but we're to make that difference, we're to be the SALT AGENTS! to show the world, we are CHRISTIANS and we live for GOD. (((: so strive and press on and work towards being more and more like CHRIST. (((: AMEN?

alrightys, now to share abt my day and my lit paper today.
first of all, thank YOU everyone who has been faithfully praying for me! yepp, today marks the day that half of A lvls is almost DONE! (((: HAHA..

lit paper 1 was okay, the poems were kinda tough. maybe because i was kinda out of touch and i didnt exactly read thru my skills again. but i think Othello was quite okay. P&P was confusing. HAHA. but thank GOD, i managed to complete everything with abt 13mins to spare. (((:

i rushed home to sleep because last night, i didnt sleep very well, but i thank GOD i managed to spend time with HIM and everything. so i slpt, i did, abt 4 hrs! till i got awoken by a call. but it was a good talk. ((: yepp..

i'm QUITE hungry now, so i'm gonna eat dinner!
continue to pray for me! ECONS paper 2 in the aftnoon tmr! :P
THANKS!! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

I'M SORRY!!

2008-11-09T19:40:00.002+08:00

heyy :]

wow, its been quite a while since i've felt my emotions go crazy and wild like that. well, nt in a good sense. but i'm acknowledging it.

i admit that i've changed alot. (whether for the better or not i dunno) and all i know is that i need to change still. and i know that i can only change thru GOD's empowement and help. and i am seeking HIM and praying that as situations and circumstances happened, that i will learn to handle them iwth discernment and wisdom.

i just want to say, i am SORRY. i sincerely ask for forgiveness from ALL of you, especially to those whom i've done them wrong without knowing. i'm really sorry. please understand that it is never my intention of tearing a person down. and i'm SORRY. i know i need to speak less, and slower and listen more.

please forgive me. to my dearest, closest friends in POINT COMM, i'm sorry!

and i'm sorry abt the way i reacted and stuff during the time we were in the conference room. i'm nt gonna give any excuses or anything, but i just want to say sorry. and i pray and hope that all of you would forgive me. i know no point regretting, but i'll try to remind myself and learn from my mistakes and not to repeat them again. YEP.

i really love all of you and i truly treasure every single one of you that GOD has placed in my life. and i thank GOD for each and every one of your presence in my life. and thank you for being there for me. and thru my youth. ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i never meant to hurt, or scold or be rude or disrespectful,
and right now, i just want to make peace.
so that we can all grow in love together
and stay united.

Identity crsis?

2008-11-08T09:19:00.004+08:00

hello everyone! i've re-opened my blog. because i realised alot of people have been asking. and alot of times, i feel that thru my blogs, i convey messages to different people. HAHA. so dun give up reading my blog okay? HAHA.

as u can tell from my title, i've got something to share again! (((: its been quite a while. HAHA

okayy, i was jus doing QT and the title of it was 'CHOOSE LIFE' . passage is from DEUTERONOMY 30:15-20. read v16!!

and the sharing was about how we need to have a purpose in our lives. and without a clear controlling purpose in life, the personality disintegrates thru its own inner clashes.
NO PURPOSE = NO PERSONALITY!

so, all of us have personality and we think we know our purpose here on EARTH. but, are we really that clear about it? we may have drafted out our own course in life and by what age will accomplish what and stuff like tt. but is what we've drafted out for ourselves in accordance to GOD's plans for us?

GOD's plans which are perfect and to give us a hope and a future! and, ask yourself, do you know GOD's purpose for you? i can honestly tell u, i'm still seeking HIM. ((: and i wanna encourage the rest of you not to give up. and press in.! yeah? (((:

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yep. anw, last night i managed to rush down for cell even in the midst of my crazy, stressful, hectic week. (((: tho i was late. but i managed to like catch what benny HO was saying. and i totally agree that we cannot live in deceptions.

emotions are really something that can make u feel u're on cloud 9 and at the same time its something that can destroy you totally. that's why... when we get attack spiritually, we cannot just wallow and cry and, worst still, blame GOD. we need to be able to acknowledge that we're being attacked and then rise above it!! (((: and like to be able to hold up our SHIELD OF FAITH and to fight the battle. and the victory will be ours because if GOD is for us, who can be against us? AMEN?

and i wanna encourage all my darlings in POINT. COMM nt to give up and continue to uphold one another in prayer. it doesnt jus mean that unless the person is sick or has exams then we need to pray. PRAYING is part of our EVERYDAY LIFE. and we need to constantly cover one another because the devil is trying very hard to tear us down. and we should also rejoice and be prepared because our GREAT and ALMIGHTY GOD is doing something BIG in our lives! (((: and we just have to avail ourselves for HIM to work mightily thru us! EACH AND EVERYONE OF US HAVE A CALLING, AND PURPOSE, AND GOD WANTS TO USE US!

HE has blessed us with gifts and talents and we should not hide it but use it to BLESS HIS NAME, TO GLORIFY HIM and to bring more people to know HIM. AMEN? ((: and we got to be sure of our identity in CHRIST. being a christian isnt jus abt reading the bible or jus going to church on saturdays or sundays. calling oneself a christian means one HAS a RELATIONSHIP with GOD. and a relationship is something that needs to be upkept. and needs communication. likewise, GOD wants to speak to us, but are we listening?

DONT ask GOD what HE can do for you, ASK HIM what you can do for HIM! (((:

i wanna spur all of you on to continue to serve GOD and to continue to seek HIM for your identity in HIM! and for your life purpose! (((:

in HIS service.
CHARI ** ((:

A turn of events.

2008-11-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

hellO!

okayy. people's been asking me why i've privatised my blog. but i guess, the MAIN reason is because i dont want anonymous people to be reading and tagging nonsense that might affect me and thus, inevitably affect me during this time while i'm doing As.

and i will OFFICIALLY re-open it when As is over.

anw, this past few days has really been topsy turvy!! -.-'' first of all, i went to school the day before (tues) thinking there was history extra lesson, at 8.45am! woke up super early. even tho i was stil late. and then i reached at almost 9.05 and thot i was extremely late. and felt super bad coz ZHIRA waited for me. BUT, to my surprise, we were early. and the teacher wasnt there YET. hsiang lin was inside the library. and zhira and i sat outside while i ate my "breakfast".

then we saw jonathan, so asked him, what time is it and he said, postponed to 9.30am. i was like... CHEYY! then i wake up so early for what??! goodness. okay, nvm, so we went into the library and chitchatted. HAHA. then KENG GUAN came. so sat down with us and started talking abt results.

then lin and i went to find our teacher to get our report books and i went to pay money for year book. yep, then sat there for a long long while... then i said, if she's nt coming, i'll leave. then called purani, and realised it was cancelled! -.-''

okayy, then yesterday, i didnt meet zhira to study and didnt go sku because i was SUPPOSED to have econs tuition. BUT, in the end, my teacher cancelled it! and i didnt meet zhira to study in the end, coz... i was LAZY. and it was raining. but i managed to do some work myself last night. ((((: super happy. HAHA.

finished perfect comp and cost&production notes. ((: on to monopoly nw. i dun think i gt enuff time lor. need to cram like crazy! SIGHS! and so, i've decided not to go sku tmr.

ANW, today, i woke up super early, wanting to do some work first. but didnt in the end, because... i swept the floor, packed the table, and went to buy breakfast for myself and mummy. and then my tuition teacher msg-ed to say she cant come! -.-'' win liao lor! ARGH! so, i immediately msged ZHIRA and asked her to meet me to study. shuyun wanted to go too! so we went together. but realised, WOODLANDS REGIONAL LIBRARY was extremely packed because it was in the afternoon alrdy.

so we headed to RP's library which was totally NOT conducive AT ALL! -.-''''' super noisy. super distracting. and i drank some HAZELNUT VANILLA FRAPPE that didnt taste anything like it but tasted like ALMOND instead! BAHHH! cheat my moneY! -.-''

anw, then went out, zhira went home, supposed to meet gracey and her boyfriend but didnt get to meet in the end, and shuyun and i met mel, had tea break, realised mel hasnt had lunch! -.-'' poor guy. so we watch him eat. HAHA, actually no, i think i ate ALOT. LOL. then i paid for US. LOL. and we walked around COLD STORAGE. then went to wait for our bus! HAHAH. shuyun and i are the ultimate BLUR QUEENS! HAHAA. it was really hilarious!

i thot that there were alot of ppl like us waiting out of the queue. and there were so many ppl. so i told her, let them board first. she was like, hmm.. okayy. ((: and then we happy happy sit there. until we saw our bus DRIVE AWAY!!! LOL!!! so we decided take TRAIN lor.

lol, and we walked home! HEEE. exercise. :P but we did alot of walking today. shuyun was saying her legs are aching. HEH. so are mine! oh wells, my head's aching as well. i guess nt enuff water for the day. i feel sick.

didnt managed to study much. but at least i got to know that merit and demerit goods are private goods! HEH. and did finish up perfect comp lah. with a rough understanding. MONOPOLY! ((((:

okayy, i gtg. i need to pray! VERY IMPT!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

study date with ZHIRA

2008-11-05T13:05:00.003+08:00

wheeeeee!! i'm so happy, i managed to arrange to meet with ZHIRA to study even tho in the end i didnt get to have econs tuition and missed history lesson in the morning because of it. -.-''

at least, i still get to meet ZHIRA to study! she's like really a very good study partner. and she's very ON to studying! HAHA. tt's why i'm like so motivated. :P okayy! i think i'll have to study on my own too! so, i'm gonna do econs for now. then meet her later to do lit as well.

yepp, its been ages since i did lit. so i need to do it! HAHAHA. :P yepp. and i'm quite looking forward to my papers! (((:

thanks study date!! ((:

in HIS love.
charii ((:

STUDYING STUDYING STUDYING.

2008-11-05T09:54:00.004+08:00

heyy (((:

i really dunno what to blog abt. abit sian to blog. but sian-er to do other things. so i'm blogging here. HAHAA.

i managed to finish cost and production yesterday. with a superficial understanding of all the market structures. HAHA. but at least, i did something right?

i went to sch early in the morning yesterday jus to realise that lessons with JOY TAN got cancelled! -.-'' at first they said, pushed back, then i called purani and she was like surprised i didnt know it was cancelled. HEH. so in the end, hsiang lin, zhira and i went to do our report book stuff and check our testimonial and stuff and then went to macs for breakfast!

its been such a long time since i enjoyed breakfast at macs! i had MCGRIDDLES!!! ((((: i love it man. so yummY! i was so hungry i ate everything, yep, including hash brown and finished my ice lemon tea! :P

then train-ed back home with them and went to study! HAHA. and i managed to watch half of CSI. thanks to a certain someone. and parts of AMAZING RACE. LOL. i love AXN! haha. anw, last night on HBO gt charlotte's WEB! :P but i didnt watch.

i was so super tired last night. and i realised, i didnt eat lunch nor dinner yesterday! pretty jialat. only some sort of snacks in btw. ooohh.. but i did have PASTA with button mushrooms, and luncheon meat! WHOA!! its really mo tak tim ah!! :P (meaning, cannot beat, its the best on earth)!!

madewithlove. :]]

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

5 more to go.

2008-11-03T15:53:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i'm here to blog! whoa, i'm super glad now i've finished 3 papers! ((((:
quite fast eh? :P hehehee.

today's GP paper was weird. IT WAS SUPER TOUGH LAHHH! -.-''
i almost cudnt finish paper 1. and its so dumb! the question i did was question 7 and it is... AIR TRAVEL SHOULD BE DISCOURAGED, NOT PROMOTED. TO WHAT EXTENT DO YOU AGREE???

goodness. i think i wrote a whole lot of crap. especially towards the end because i thot no more time! thank GOD i ended with 3 mins to spare. and then for paper 2, i think i spent too much time on SQ! -.-'' bahh! so irritating. i was really enjoying the passage and everything and really had so much to say and write on AQ!!! but nt enuff time. i had like 20mins lehh! BUT NOT ENUFF!!!! -.-'' super sian! i really wanted to complete it. OH WELLS. hmm..

anw, i was so super hungry after my paper and still had to stay back to do some GP survey! heh. and actually ended at 11.50. but stayed back til like 12.15 i think. HEH. then still need go find teacher and go toilet and all. and hais, rush here rush there, in the end nothing done. and i got sch tmr! ://// from 8.45-12.45! sighs.

and i got econs tuition. and i need to do econs! i haven done econs essays lahh. and melvin is having his ECONS exam thingy, and he has helped me recapped alot of econs terms as he revised and as i test him. COOLIOS eh? :P thanks mel! and tt's why its good to help other revise, coz subconsciously, you yourself oso revising. LOL.

ooh, and i had a really good lunch. coz i was like so super hungry. and i'm so super tired now. so i think i shall konk off soon! pls continue to pray for me! thanks ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

1st PAPER- HISTORY.

2008-10-31T14:34:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

hahaa, now, only invited ppl can read my blog! WHEEE! no more weird ppl, annoymous human beings and un-nice ppl! (((: you ppl are the privileged 8 to be able to read more blog daily. and dun u dare give out ur username and password to others so that they can access my blog ah! :P

anw, today's history paper is quite interesting. it was really pretty easy. but then again, charii didnt study, whose fault? VINCENT'S? heh, no lah, my own. who ask me nv study, who ask me talk on the phone, who ask me nv slp?! hais. this morning was really crazy man. my stomach hurt so badly. and i msged 4 ppl, mel, gab, sus and mummy. and only sus replied me lahh! GOOD LAH! hais. nvm, sus, u're THE BEST! ((:

anw, i had lunch with mel, melvin mahaan, punitha, syl and her boyfriend raazak. LOL. it was pretty fun! (((: but mel so quiet lahh! LOL. quietly listening to our "wholesome" talk abt A lvls and UNI. HEH.

anw, i'm super tired nw. i dunno if i shud go for tuition or for CLUNY. i think i shall not go for either. HEH. :P super tired. i shall slp and then watch tv! LOL. no lah, and then read notes alright? so that, i can 1) save money. 2) study. 3) get enuff rest. 4) wake up early to meet ______ for breakfast. ((: HAHAHAA!! :P

anw, i think this is coooool! :P i'm gonna limit the ppl who can read my blog. LOL! :P or i shud change my blog. HAHA. like MOVE! :P

anw, in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

woots. mixed feelings.

2008-10-30T22:16:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i haven blogged in awhile. been so super busy. HAHA. u wont believe me. i've been playing so hard, it doesnt even feel likes its A levels tmr. and yes, my As start tmr!!!! -.-''

i really want to thank ALL who has been praying for me, spurring me on, telling me i NEED to study. and catching hold of me and making me read and digest my notes. dragging me to school and all. LOL! thanks alot! esp to rena and ZHIRA!! LOL. love all of u! (((:

i've been really enjoying myself like no one's business. and i'm extremely happy tt As are finally here and soon its gonna be finally over. esp aft GP paper, it will be like 5 papers more to go! SUPER FAST! ((((: and then i can really take a break. whether or not i do well, or fail all, i will still PRAISE GOD. because i know HE has HIS plans for me! and plans to prosper me, and to give me a future! and i really cant wait to go for SERVE, do driving, work, and SERVE HIM! :P

i'm so super excited! HAHAA. i dunno why. and i feel and think GOD is so good. and so amazingg! and i know HE's with me all the way! (((:

okayy, i think i gtg.

anw, pls pray for me!! HISTORY PAPER 2 TOMORROW!!! at 8AM! [its a 3 hr paper!!! HEH]

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LORD, thank YOU for filling me with more and more of YOUR love. and more and more of COMPASSION. LORD, i know i need YOU in my life, and nothing else is more impt than YOU! ((:

random

2008-10-23T14:22:00.002+08:00

The Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people

1] How are you feeling today?
SHINE FOR YOU - Hillsong

2] Will you get far in life?
Trading my sorrows (answer is yes, coz i'm trading my sorrows! HEH)

3] What's your best friend's theme song?
TAKE IT ALL - hillsong (definitely nt her fav song LOL)

4] What is the story of your life?
ONE WAY - Hillsong

5] What was high school like?
You are good.

6] How can you get ahead with life?
Devoted

7] What's the best things about your friends?
I will be here (yeahh, definitely!)

8] Describe your grandparents.
Kid's prayer. (LOL)

9] How's your life going?
More love, More power (so true man! LOL)

10] What will be played at my funeral?
(this is gonna be hilarious!) HOSANNA - Hillsong

11] Will you have a happy life?
Absolutely nothing. (LOL, sure, i guess i dun need anything else except GOD)

12] What do your friends really think of you?
Never let you go.

13] Do people secretly lust after you?
Friend of GOD (this doesnt makes sense at ALL!)

14] How can you make yourself happy?
Today (as for me and my house) [meaning, i can make myself happy by SERVING GOD. as for me and my household, we will choose to follow GOD and SERVE HIM! AMEN? :P]

15] What should you do with your life?
you have been faithful

16] Will you ever have children?
My GOD

17] What song would you strip to?
(this is so wrong!!) nt gonna answer. LOL.
[ Your name is HOLY ]

18] What does your mum think of you?
You are HOLY. (lol. i really wana be! )

19] What is your deep, dark secret?
You are my King

20] What is your enemy's theme song?
Glorify your name

21] What's your personality like?
To the Ends of the Earth (goodness, its so me lahh! -.-'' yeahh, i'll do anything for you. i'll go to the end of the earth for yoU!)

22] What will be played at your wedding?
all the earth (even tho i wished it forwarded to LOVE OF MY LIFE) heh.

tt's all folks. i wana a longer one! :P

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

AM I READY?

2008-10-23T13:21:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i can very honestly tell u, i'm not that ready. not ready to announce, not ready for As, i'm only READY and very willing and cant wait, to go for SERVE and to really SERVE GOD! ((:

i want to catch the waves and ride on them. i wana FLY! ((:

haha, speaking of fly, i feel like going back to VANCOUVER. really. during my break. hmm.. anyone wana go with me? :p

anw, yesterday, we went to SURPRISE MELVIN GAN to HAPPY BIRTHDAY him. LOL. and i tink it was quite hilarious. my job was to go distract him. like bring him detour. and i really did. but he was really excited i guess. LOL. so funny.

i flew all over singapore to get presents for him. and then almost forgot to get him the card. and i wrote it while waiting for the train. 5mins. DONE. LOL. then went to DOVER to wait for him. and i almost fell aslp. i was EXTREMELY tired la. and then we were supposed to go ikea to eat meatballs. but nt enuff time.. ERNEST TOLD US : "COME BACK NOWW!!!"

so mel and i had to look for the bus stop which has 27 to go back home. SUPER FUNNY! coz... we dunno where's the busstop. and anyhow walk. but mel seemed like he knew where he was going. but it was like raining lahh! bahh. then alighted and had to walk to his hse. SUPER funny. he keep looking out for ernest and gang. LOL. until reach his house, up in his lift, he didnt want come out either. -.-''

but i think he's happy and touched. and was OVERWHELMED. coz.. i think he hasnt had anything like tt. YAY! GOOD JOB ALL! we managed to create a memorable 17th birthday for him! ((((: thanks everyone for coming down! ((:

aft tt, we rushed to pp to eat macs. HEH. becoz ernest,raymond need go ART, and nich had meeting. so, jem, ali, me, and mel ate dinner first. HEH. i met uncle steven and shermaine and all at macs too! (((: and u know wad? they were playing boggle too! LOL.

then sus came, and shared her joy with us, then went to collect her boggle, and played boggle downstairs fabian's block! HEHEHEE! SUPER FUN! WHEEEEEE! but i think everyone was tired lahh. then i reached home alm0st 12 lahh! -.-'' and i took bus back myself. HMM.. anw, i was so completely exhausted i didnt quite change. and i slpt. and i cudnt wake up this morning. thank GOD tuition got cancelled. i'm feeling extremely lAZY! :///

anw, LOVE OF MY LIFE, ALLSWELL and YOU really make me smile. LOL! it jus cracks me up!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LOVE OF MY LIFE

2008-10-22T11:37:00.002+08:00

heyy (((:

i'm in a JOLLLY GOOD MOOD!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVIN!!

hahahaa! wishing u fun, laughter, peace and joy from now til 4eva more! my prayer for you is that u'll continue to grow even stronger and stronger in the LORD! may u continue to shine for JESUS and continue to allow HIM to use you mightily! (((:

okayy, yesterday was... BEAUTIFUL! besides history lesson. HEH. history was boring to the max. zhira and i decided to leave early. but it was good to see everyone else again! (((: it felt good. HAHA. different feeling this time. ((: anw.. yepp. i cudnt even eat lunch. hungry until nt hungry. only had fries and mountain dew.

and i watched my dancing show - STEPS away from home. and reached home late. :// sorry mummY! but i enjoyed myself. HAHA..

and i really love this song - "LOVE OF MY LIFE". super nice lahh! thanks for sending me this song! (((:

no photos to post. ://

I am amazed
When i look at youI see you smiling back at me
It's like all my dreams come true
I am afraid If i lost you girlI'd fall through the cracks
And lose me track in this crazy lonely world
Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When the nights can be so long
And gave me the strength
And kept me holding on

Chorus
You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
The love of my life
Now here you are
With midnight closing in
You take my hand as our shadows dance
With moonlite on you skin
I look in your eyes
I'm lost inside your kiss
I think if i'd never met you
About all the things i'd missed
sometimes it's so hard to believe
when a love can be so strong and faith gave me the strength and kept me holding on
You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
The love of my life

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

MOOD SWINGS

2008-10-21T00:12:00.002+08:00

is this what people call mood swings?

how one person says something that affects u like crazy? how 1 person knocks u on ur head, and u feel entirely different.

i tell u honestly, i feel i've just lost something. something is missing. and that feeling i get is PAIN!
there's pain in my head. in my heart. in my stomach and in my spirit. something's NOT right. i want to find my joy again.

i cannot always be there for everyone of u. and i know u all know that. and i oso know, its human nature to want to have someone special there for u. but mayb sometimes, i'm just nt the special one. i cannot be a special one to everyone now can i? BUT, let me tell u something, there's someone who can ALWAYS be there for you, who u can trust, and hope in, and who will always love u! that person is... GOD. i'm serious. everything else is changing, the only constant in this world is CHANGE. but, ppl are wrong! there's something else that is CONSTANT. and tt is GOD.

HE will never leave nor forsake you. you can always trust, always hope, and will always be loved by a GOD so BIG and so GREAT and so MIGHTY! there's really NOTHING HE cannot do. i've been there, gone thru it, experienced HIS AWESOME, MAGNIFICENT love for me.

(there was a break, where i went to pray and GOD spoke! WOW! so amazingg!)

okayy, yes, back. and GOD spoke. GOD spoke thru a person. and i really thank GOD for my SPECIAL FRIEND. (((: so amazingg. like, the things my friend said, was exactly what i said earlier on. and it was SIMPLY... WOW!!! i'm really in AWE of how GOD uses people to do HIS work. and HOW HE truly is GOD. and how we shudnt doubt HIM and NEVER limit HIM! GOD IS GOOD! HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER!! (((:

NOT JUS A SPARK, NOT JUS A FLAME, BUT MY HEART IS ON FIRE, MY SPIRIT IS AFLAME!! ITS PASSION! AN UNEXPLANABLE FEELING. LIVING FOR YOU, DYING TO SELF. THERE'S PASSION IN ME!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

TCM + other photos. :P

2008-10-20T00:04:00.021+08:00

TCM RETREAT.

Cassandra's chalet.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LAUGH OF MY LIFE...

2008-10-19T23:15:00.003+08:00

HEYLOOOO!!! ((:

today is SUCH an AMAZING DAY! lol. it was really hilarious lahh! o.O''
ask SUS! goodness, i'm so sure she'll blog abt it. LOL!

i couldnt stop laughing today!! it was REALLY funnY! i laughed until i sit on the floor (from the chair to the floor! o.O'') and cry. LOL! until ppl dunno i crying or laughing. HAHA!!! IT WAS REALLY HILARIOUS!

service was quite cool. the verse spoke to me agaiN! "GUARD YOUR HEART LIKE A WELL-SPRING OF LIFE" PRoverbs 4 something. LOL. so amazing.. i had kway chap with the youth. which was EXTREMELY fun! ((: hahaha..

oh yeahh, i haven blogged abt TCM yesterday? GOODNESS. gonna be VERY long post. HAHAHA!. okayy, i finish up today first. then i walked back myself to church, feeling abit emo. took JOSHUA HARRIS and went to read it in church. but i only read abt 1 page plus. then the rest came back.

THEN, it was "THRASHING" session. ME, SUS, GABBY!. lol. it was a good session i feel. (((: but i thank GOD that the HOLY SPIRIT was leading. ((: gabb, i hope u're feeling better. keeping u in my prayers. ((:

after tt, we did the flyers. ((: SUPER COOL. BUT SCARY! wahhh, blk 118 is the scariest block! NW, i partnered mel. heh. and he didnt say anything. but he carried everything for me. (((: thanks mel!! ((:

hmm.. anw, then the guys had soccer. then it was mel, kaixiang, sus, and me and alex. i dunno to put a "HAHA" or a "SIGHS". okayy, it was HAHA at first til we were abt to leave. then i feel really bad. ://// and alex, if u ever get to read this, i'm SORRY! i really am. i know tiredness isnt an excuse. and all i can do is apologise that i didnt do what JESUS would do. i pray that u'll forgive me. (:

anw, dinner was the BEST! ((: FISHERMAN'S WHARF!! WHEEEEEE! LOVE it. but the price went up by $1!! lol. inflation ahh! the last time i went there to it like hw many yrs ago lahh! LOL! oh myy! LOL! then gabby and i walked the whole of CLARKE QUAY to find SETTLERS and finally we gave up, called geok hock, and FOUND it. and realised we walked in circles! -.-'' we quite smart eh? HEH.

but we finally got SABOTEUR!!!!! WOOTS! its fun man! but geok hock is right, cannot play too often. will get sian. and nt only tt, if like take too long to play 1 rd, can die ah. tired. :/// i sit there quite bored. i went to fisherman's with gabby (OF COURSE), marcus ng, marcus koh, MEL, SUS, JEM, and kaixiang. ((((((: i totally love them! HAHAHA. super funny! but i'm sorry marcus (koh) tt we reached home late.

oh yeahh, and on our way home, we witness like 3 accidents i think. i thot cte would be the fastest way home. but to my amazement!!! !!! reallY, goodness, the truck overturn and closed 2 lanes at yishun there. crazy mann!! so scary, everyone cutting here and there and honing and all. :/// i dun like. and my head stil hurts. oh wells.and my tongue too.

HAHA! anw, i will post photos sooN! i think i wont blog abt TCM. too long. but all in all, i HAD fun. it was a good retreat. and WELCOME CASSANDRA AND MELVIN into our BIG familY! i'm glad to have another sister and brother! ((((: thank GOD for the both of u! ((:

i really enjoyed myself today! thanks for everything all of u!

thank u all for loving me! thank you for being patient with me. and thank u for blessing me!
oh yes, mel, thanks for always being that encourager! (((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

ASTONS

2008-10-17T10:41:00.001+08:00

i realised my eyes are extremely small. HEH.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

i'll be fine.

2008-10-17T09:56:00.002+08:00

heyy

i'm waiting for the sunshine after the rain. well, i guess i got my sunshine alrdy. but, nt tt it's nt enuff, but i guess i've to guard my emotions.

this goes out to everyone. whether u know what happened or not, PLEASE do me a favour. DUN LET ME SLIP INTO EMO MODE! everytime i feel down or u sense i'm emo-ing pls come along side me and cheer me up or distract me. and at the same time, i'll try my best not to think so much and continue to be the cheerful/bubbly me u all know. THANK YOU.

yesterday was GREAT! we shud do it more often dun u guys/gal agree?? ((:
i met up with sus, jem, mel yesterday at a void deck in pp! HEH!
u know, i called for the "meeting" but i was LATE! WHOOPSY! :P
sorry guys! heh. i live far ya know? LOL!
and i walked in the rain. :/// SOBS. so cold, so wet! -.-

anyways, we sat down, and i started to share.
my freedom, of how i really WANT to OBEY GOD.
i CHOOSE to obey HIM.
and what's the price i had to pay and everything.
and u know, jus keeping accountable. ((: very good lahh!
i enjoyed tt session.

then mel shared. i tell u, this guy has REALLY been touched by GOD!
he's so on fire and his passion for GOD is so STRONG because...
go find out his story! ((:

jem shared abit, but i think we all cudnt really understand what he was saying.
LOL. jem jem, u got to try to think first. then find ur point, then tell us! LOL!

then sus listened. HEH. LOL!

but all in all, i really want to thank the 3 of u for coming into my life, for walking side by side me. for encouraging me, spurring me on, loving me and really being there for me! but i'll try nt to call anyone of u in the middle of the night alrights? ((:

most importantly, i WANT to thank GOD! i really thank GOD for GODLY friends. friends who also share the same understanding and thinking and also who LOVE and want to SERVE and OBEY the GOD i love, want to serve, and choose to obeY! ((:
thus, tt includes all of u back in POINT COMM! i love u all! ((:
thanks for all the fun, laughter, nonsense, jus nuahing, the chilling out. the crying tog, the praying and everything! ((: thank U!

each and everyone of u are truly GOD's blessings to me in my life. it is not by chance that our paths crossed alright? ((: each of u are special and unique! because our loving HEAVENLY FATHER created yoU! ((:

yepp, anw, the "meeting" ended with jem's powerful prayer which made me feel even more empowered. and a little prayer tt i said. sorry mel, i didnt know u wanted to pray too. coz i tot sus had to fly! HAHA!

in the end, we ended up eating dinner with sus and FRIENDS. ((: suimin,jiahui, and ZHOU. heh. yeah.. jem went back tho. but mel and i followed her. HAHA. i really wanted to meet her friends. but i seriously felt very old when i was with them. HEH! first time, i wasnt exactly noisy. i guess, they didnt quite give me a chance to strike a convo that cud include everyone. or rather, i was extremely tired. so my brain nt really working. and since they were talking all the way, i guess i cud remain quiet. til i got really HUNGRY! heh.

we had ASTON's yesterday. AGAIN! but this time, 6 ppl eat, cheaper than 4 (sus, jem, glow, me) of us ate! by like 30cents. LOL! anw, it was quite a nice time out with sus, mel, jem, and sus' friends. ((: they're quite funnY!

anw, i got to go do ECONS essay!

cant wait to see you and all of you later! :P
LATERS!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

PHOTO UPlOAD

2008-10-16T09:56:00.012+08:00

i dunno why the photo is like that! ://

i'm kinda lazy to arrange them in order. so.. they're super messy and random. collected over 3 days!. heh.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

drillings are irritating

2008-10-16T09:41:00.004+08:00

heyy ((:

i was extremely tired last night when i blogged tt's why i was kinda incoherent. HA.

drillings are EXTREMELY irritating!!!!!!!!!!!! it woke me up from my beautiful sleep! yeah lah, i know i shudnt slp so much. the earlier i get up the better. HEH. but its VERY irritating. how to study like tt? like directly above me, there's drilling, there's drilling outside in the hall there as well. BAHH! the noise is giving me a headache.

mayb i really shud go run or something. and of coz sweep my room. pack my room! so messy. i dun like it. :// oooh, i got alot of pictures to upload lahh. but i think it might take forever. coz its ALOT! anw, i shall try. HAHA.

yesterday i went gahgah over babies. HAHA. i think JOEL has really brought a lot of joy into my life. he makes me feel so.... i dunno. LOL. he makes me wana have one of my own! HAHAA! he's so small, so cute, so fragile, and so... cuddly! i wana carry him everyday! HAHA! joel, i love U! ((: cant wait for the day u can talk! for the day u can walk. for the day u smile at me for the first time. ((:

oh myy! 14days left to study like nuts. okay. no life. dun contact me. dun ask me out. i will try to understand why u leave me out. but after As must INCLUDE me okay? ((: goodness, life without the youth, is no life! HAHAH!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

((((((((((: finally.

2008-10-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

my title abit wrong, coz its nt final final yet. i got 2 things to overcome nw. 1 is As. the other is... __________. and i will do it. LORD, YOU strengthen me!

okayy, i spent my whole day cramping. okay, nt whole day lah. but in the morning. tt's why i didnt run today. nid to run tmr. nid to wake up early. so cant slp too late.

i cant think so much too. WOOTS! anw, i really feel ALOT better saying everything out. like nt left to think, to feel, to guess. its super tiring lahh.and i had enuff of tt. enuff of guessing. i'm tired.

i love dogs. i think they're ADORABLE!!!! whoaaa! this doggy i saw at some pet shop! really beautiful. i totally agree. BEAUTIFUL! and YOU're really nice! i really pray and hope we'll forever be good friends. ((: i wouldnt trade u for anyone else! thanks! thanks for understanding me. thanks for agreeing to help me as well! (((((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

PRIORITISE!

2008-10-15T09:42:00.002+08:00

heyy! ((:

i finally did something yesterday. tt's why i always say tuition is good. HEH. it FORCES you to do work. anw, i completed like 3 econs essays yesterday. another 3 to complete by today before my teacher comes. :// and she's coming at 1. HEH. but i think she'll be late. :P

i cannot keep watching tv, keep catching repeats. and keep talking on the phone and all, its not that i dun enjoy doing them. but i need to re-adjust and prioritise things. STUDIES need to come first. at least for nw. actually, think abt it, nt tt long then i really can play alrdy. ITS A LVLS. i cannot take it lightly! hmm..

at the same time, i'm trying pretty hard to lose weight! mummy has been helping me. HAHAA. super funnY! my portions are getting smaller. no gastric! ((: PRAISE GOD!! ((: drinking alot of water. avoid all the sweet stuff. LOL. regular sleep. and EXERCISE! ((: i got 3 mths to lose weight! HEH.

anw, my day yesterday was beautiful! i had loads of laughs! and a fair share of tears. but SOMEONE really makes my day! it's like so far yet so near! ((: i like that feeling. like no matter what happens, i jus need to CALL! and i know you'll be there for me! i know!!! :P HAHAA! thanks friend. ((:

i woke up at 10.40am. got changed, talked to dad and went down for a jog with daddy! ((: the weather was nice, wind was good. i ran awhile. prolly only 10mins. HEH. [my stamina is really BAD] :/// anw, then came back up, tried to talk to shuyun and daddy all at the same time, making my head spin. and i missed my show. :// oh wells.

shuyun then came over at abt 1 plus to study with me! ((: tt was really nice. tt's how i had motivation to clear 3 essays. HEH. then vincent came over to pass me some stuff. i realised, i was either bz or had alot of things on my mind, i didnt really talk to him. he jus sat at my sofa. LOL. sorry!

at abt 5 plus shuyun and i went down to pasir ris! yeah, all jus to give her boyfriend's friend someting. but, it was nonetheless a fruitful trip because we went SHOPPING after that!! HAHAHAAA! and we took photos! (((: super nice lahh! and its only $7 lahh! SUPER CHEAP! and the photos look GREATTT!!! (((((((: HAHA. and we really had truckloads of laughs while on the train coming back! i cudnt stop laughing. i dunno why. even when we heard an emo song, i was stil laughing and she had to repeat that song 3 TIMES for me, coz she wanted me to pay attention to the lyics. LOL! HILARIOUS!!!! :P

then i rushed home to talk to ________. and i prayed. and i told GOD how i felt and everything. yeah, tt was when i cried. but it was good. u know? like to release emotions and all. it's necessary. HAHA. anw, the conversation was good too! THANKS!! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

my darlingggg!! ((:

2008-10-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH!

2008-10-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i'm extremely happy because i feel extremely appreciated. extremely loved. i really like the feeling of love! LOVE is such a HUGE and BIG word. and it's meaning is so DEEP that its so hard to grasp. but u know what? when u're filled with GOD's love, trust me, u'll know how it feels like to have all of it! ((:

i've been focusing alot of brotherly love. ((: i've been like telling ppl to love each other. to talk nicely to each other, to be patient with each other. ((: tt's all about love.
1 CORINTHIANS 13:4-8 states that:
Love is PATIENT, love is KIND.
it does NOT ENVY, it does NOT BOAST, it is NOT PROUD.
it is NOT RUDE, it is NOT SELF-SEEKING, it is NOT EASILY ANGERED, it keeps NO RECORD OF WRONGS.
LOVE does NOT DELIGHT in evil but REJOICES with the TRUTH!
It ALWAYS PROTECTS, ALWAYS TRUSTS, ALWAYS HOPES, ALWAYS PERSEVERES.
LOVE NEVER FAILS! (((((:

once again, i cant change the colour back AGAIN. hehehe. :P

i love GLOW, ERNEST, MELVIN, SUS, JEM (dun get offended if i didnt mention ur name) coz, i love all of u, jus tt i got specific things i wana thank them for! ((:

GLOW: i really love u coz u're EXTREMELY funny and u never fail to entertain me. yet, there's a something something abt u, that lets me know we're good friends. and there isnt any front we've got to put up when we're hanging out together. ((: thanks brother! ((:

ERNEST: HAHA! ERNESTTT!!! oooh, u're really hilarious. u're like so super quiet. but when u say ur lame jokes, oh myy! its really lame! HAHA. and u're super cute to msg me abt the yishun thingy last night. HAHA sorry i cudnt reply coz my phone no batt. :// thanks ernest, for always meeting me in the mornings and going home with me! ((:

MELVIN: oOOH MELVIN GAN!! u're really special! i really thank GOD for allowing our paths to cross. i cant stop thanking HIM. REALLY. and thanks for all the times when u prayed for me. thanks for listening to me. thanks for making me smile whenever i'm down. thanks for ALL the fun and the GODLY perspectives. most imptly mel, thanks for living your life for JESUS. i'm truly encouraged by you, by ur very being ((: THANKS MELMEL! ((:

SUS: HEYY SISTERR!! ((: ooooh, sus, suzyy! haha, i oso cant thank GOD enuff for putting you in my life!! ((: u've truly shared my roller coaster ride. u're really my support and u're really GOD-SENT. :P sus, thanks for BEING REAL! thanks for being there for me ALL the time! thank u so much for loving me. for caring for me. (((: i really appreciate you truckloads. ((: i've really learned alot alot from yoU! ((: u're truly special! ((: i love you!

JEM: HEYYY! LOL. thanks jem, for always snapping pics for me! for always telling me abt ur AURA.. LOL. and always lightening up the atmosphere. thanks for all ur encouragement. thanks for sharing stuff with me! thank you! u're a blessing!

HAHA! i totally love all of you!! ((: THANK YOU EVEN MORE FOR LOVING ME FOR WHO I AM. FOR HANGING OUT WITH ME PLUS ALL THE FUN!!! (((: LOVE YOU!!

ooh. okayy. back to my dayy! HEEE. i had the MOST WONDERFUL-LEST day of my life! ((: nothing beats hanging out with the youth plus meeting my newborn nephew!! (((: JOEL LEE TIAN NENG! OOOH, he's extremely cute and i totally love him. and i really really cant wait to see him grow up! i want to be there for him for every single thing! HAHA. i dunno how to express the joy i feel in me! ((:

and and, after visiting both babyy and mummyy and daddy, we went down to KATONG to eat ASTON'S! the 1st branch! and u know what??! the SERVICE IS EXTREMELY good lahh! they're like super nice! i got two cob of CORN!!!! (((: CORN!!! WHEEEEE! corn! CORN! hahaa. alrights. yep, and i had BEEF! NEWYORK something. LOL. 250g!!!! WHEEE. and its super worth it. coz i only paid like $14.90! SUPER GOOD lahh! and super nice. nicer than SWENSENS! ((:

i've never been to that part of singapore in my entire life! AHAA.. but it was funnN! ((: i love hanging out with jem, sus and glow. coz they're super NICE and funnY! ESP GLOW (i know ALL of u can soooo IMAGINE! HAHAA. ) :P

MY JOEL LEE IS CUTEEEEEE!!

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

ROMANS 14:13
Therefore, let us stop passing judgement on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother's way.
dear LORD, i do not want to be a stumbling block in any of my brother's or sister's way. Please Lord Jesus, help me to walk ONLY in YOUR way. LORD JESUS, i want to be OBEDIENT to yoU! LORD, i put my trust in YOU! LORD JESUS, PLS GUARD MY HEART.
HELP me always to put others before me just as YOU would.
HELP me to love just as YOU would.
LORD, i pray that thru my radical changed life, more and more people will come to know YOU!
I LOVE YOU LORD. ((:

refreshed.recharged.renewed.

2008-10-13T09:26:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i'm super happY! and i'm feeling super free! but, at the same time, i really need to sit down and plan my time wiselY! no more time left!! :// super scary lahh! less than 20days to A lvls! :/// o.O!

oooh. and CONGRATULATIONS to AMANDA&TYLER! [went for their wedding dinner yesterday. :P] and CONGRATULATIONS to BEN&RENA on their arrival of BABBY JOEL!! ((: heee. yes, u can congratulate me of being an aunty nw. heh. cute babyy! ((:

i woke up super early. cant remember what i typed in my previous post coz i was rushing for time. but i guess i did write down the MAIN POINT. and the gist! (((: anw, i woke up at 6. and couldnt slp after 6.30am. so i stayed up all the way. and thru the whole day!

i was pretty hyper at breakfast where i met ernest and glow then sus, stephen and changkee joined us later. ((: and we hitched a ride frm changkee. HAHA. thanks! ((: reached church jus on time. ((: worship was really good. but my throat was really hurting! :///

anw, sermon was okayy. i admit i was falling aslp during some parts. but aft tt, i was okay. i managed to pick out some points too. ((: and after tt, we had to go give out flyers for medical sunday! and i partnered NICHOLAS. ((: HAHA. and he made me do all the talking. until i super thirsty. HEH. no la, he did help too. HAHA. and we encountered a very weird situation. i didnt know how to like just walk away. so i stood there and listened to this aunty talk abt some stuff for 15mins. [in exchange for 2 yakult drinks] heh, one for me, one for nich. ((:

i feel it was quite good interaction with the residents. ((: aft tt, had lunch at chicken rice. then ran for 142. and went home. nope, i didnt play pool. and to my surprised it was almost 5.30 when i got home. and sis got so angry with us. :///// spoilt my entire mood. not to mentioned i was alrdy super exhausted.

anw, then we went for AMANDA&TYLER's wedding dinner at regent hotel. ((: and the food was quite good. not extremely good. but okayy. and the photos and songs were so nice.. i couldnt help but think of.... ________ . anw, then nelgin drove us home, whoa, i dun even know when did i fall aslp. but i sure was aslp. HEH. came back,

"boiled porridge" with a certain someone. and then went straight to BED! whoa, tired to the max. i snoozed my alarm twice! HAHA. anw, i nida change, do some housework, pack my bag, i'm going to see BABYYY!! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

GOD IS FAITHFUL FOREVER!!!

2008-10-12T07:55:00.001+08:00

heyy ((:

i dun really have much time to blog! coz i need to rush out of the house le. and i haven changed! HEH! and i'm famished! been up since 0600!! :/// and i only slpt at like 1 plus. HEH.

anw, i really want to thank GOD and give HIM all the praise and GLORY! coz HE's really so faithful! and i know ready. i want to do what GOD wants me to do. and i want to walk in HIS ways. so that thru my obedience HE may use me even further and even more in mightier and greater ways!! ((((:

last night's experience was really super AMAZING!! simply amazing. i tell u, GOD is REAL!!! and HE's always there. it's only if we bother to take time to spend with HIM, to wait on HIM and everything! SO AMAZINGGG!! WHEEEE!! i'm super happY! i'm changed, and transformed!! ((:

okayy, will blog more when i get back. for now, i've to change and go church! CYA ALL IN CHURCH! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

funn @ mel's hse part 2

2008-10-09T21:02:00.007+08:00

HAHA. stay tune for part 3!! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LOVE

2008-10-09T18:29:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

i love love.

like i love the idea of being in love. i like the feeling i get when sumone i love loves me. or someone i like, likes me back! HAHA. its a fantastic feeling. but u know something, it doesnt mean jus because someone who u like likes u back means u've further ur relationship. commit only to how much u are able to commit now.

lol! does it sound confusing? yes right? u know wad? READ THE BOOK! "I KISSED DATING GOODBYE!" by joshua harris. ((: super good.

its not abt asking GOD, GOD, is this the best for me? is it really the best? BUT, its abt asking ourselves if WE've given GOD the BEST. OUR BEST. ((: FOOD FOR THOT. THINK ABT IT. ((:

yepp, i've decided. concluded, i really WANT to live my life for GOD! (((:

i'll post photos. HEHE. ((: pretty photos..

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LORD, i want to serve u with all that i am. ((:

funn@mel's hse

2008-10-09T00:16:00.003+08:00

more photos are supposed to come. but i guess, we've to wait til tmr. HEH

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

neither can i stop thinking..

2008-10-09T00:09:00.003+08:00

heyy ((:

i think i'm going mad soon. think too much will die. HEH, if vincent finds out, he'll be like, AIYOO, gal, why u go think again? but he would be like dying to know what i'm thinking abt. which he MIGHT jus find out soon enuff.

well, i think i will just finish up reading the book, START studyingg. STOP being nice. PERIOD.

Dear Lord,
YOU teach me to LOVE like YOU do.
Teach me not to love according to my own ways.
Teach me to have a control over my thots and emotions.
May EVERY single aspect of my life be pleasing unto YOU.
IN Jesus' name,
AMEN

i'm going gahgahh. HAHA..
~~tingling feelingg~~

in HIS love.
CHARII ** ((:

sesame street ((:

2008-10-08T04:30:00.004+08:00

WAGGYY!

cant sleep. HEH.

2008-10-08T04:09:00.003+08:00

heyy ((:

dont ask me why i'm online this late (or rather, early) its like 4am! and i dun believe i'm awake. mayb i shud study. i dunno. oh wells.

i went to see doc yesterday morning with my parents and then had lunch in pp. ate at kp. realised i didnt have breakfast yesterday and i had dinner late. mayb tt's why i feel slight gastric and mayb tt's why cudnt slp. but i was so hungry i finished my bowl of noodles super fast. lol.

yesterday was quite cool, i wanted to study yesterday. but no one study with me. guess who i called? lol.. aft lunch i went down to CompassPOINT to meet mel and nich. the amazing thing is tt, we didnt arrange a time. yet, i didnt wait longg. ((: thanks mel. (i think he ran there. lol. no lah, jk. :P) so weird, i've nv been to CP before. and i kinda jus opened my eyes extremely wide.

mel said meet at library. so i went up. walked ard, and finally found myself comfortable in the CHILDREN's SECTION. LOL. :P so cute lah, they got those round table and ikea chairs. i like. :P so i sat there to wait for mel and nich.

when i msged nich at like 1 plus tt i was alrdy at CP, he was like.. WHOA, so fast? okayy, i try reach by 2. and he did. ((: so amazing these guys! LOL. i oso went into precious thots and found a book i quite like, but abit ex. was super tempted to get it, but if i get, confirm no money le. :// but i think its a good book to invest in lei. will get the title and it shall be up on my wish list. ((:

anw, i did managed to study. like in the train frm pp to sengkang! (SENGKANG LAHH! SO FARRRRR!) and i met ernest and friends in pp. lol. so funny. i think ernest was shock to see me there. LOL. and his friend raymond is irritating, coz he calls me mdm lee. (do i look tt old?!) and i dun like ppl calling me MS lee or MDM lee actually, coz i guess, it makes us more distant. i like to have my friends close. LOL.

we sat in the children's section til nich came, til the both of them went to get books. and i am more than half way thru ASEAN. ((: then i got super hungry. went to starbucks, got my SCONES! and mel paid. :// you didnt have to you know, but thanks anw. ((: and i got sushi frm cold storage, mel got his drinks, nich got FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES! ((: super yummY! thanks nich. hahaa. and we went over to mel's place. ((: SUPER NICE HOUSE! WOOHOO, he spent more than a BOMB renovating his place. but EXTREMELY NICE..

like some show house, if only he didnt stay tt far, i tink i wud love to go everyday. LOL. his room is super nice too. and his dog is friendly and cute. LOL. his waggy is SUPER ADORABLE (cuter than his owner. LOL) and very very obedient and SMART. well-trained i wud say. ((:

and then we watched alot alot of shows. like we were watching one show aft another. LOL. MEL has like ALL the channels in the world lahh! LOL. and i tell u, honestly, i didnt feel like leaving. HEH. but i was awfully hungry and food was awaiting me at home. ://

and i tell u, mel and nich are super sweet!! ((: they like checked ALL the possible bus services frm SENGKANG tt goes to the NORTH side of sg. LOL. they even planned my route for me and all, while i cudnt really be bothered and was like watching tv. LOL. and they were like planning which is the fastest way. and guess wad? they succeeded! the fastest way is to take 161 frm opposite CP to woodlands. super FAST lah, same time nich take to go home (and he stays HOUGANG!) yeah, tt fast. and anw, i was aslp on the bus except the occassional waking up moments to reply sms. HEH.

and they waited with me til the bus came!! ((: so sweet right? lol. and i met justin at the bus stop, he was getting off the bus, and i was getting on the bus. :P HEH. so funny.

less than an hr to reach home. amazing! anw, i really had a great time studying out. HA. and i love hanging out with them! ((: they're funny and HILARIOUS. (okayy, sometimes lame, but i can still bear with the COLD) lol. :P

thanks guys! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

PRETTY/HANDSOME FACES!

2008-10-06T11:43:00.013+08:00

oooh! tt's all i took from fri-sun! ((:

is it alot? LOL. :P (not enuff for me! :P)

in HIS love.

CHARI ** ((:

BBQ + NEW FRIENDS ((:

2008-10-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

heyy!!! (((:

i'm in a SUPER GOOD MOOD. HEHEHEE! okayy, first of all, i got to play netball yesterday before bbq. and i had time to spend with daddy. a little bit. :P

and the BBQ was a SUPER great success! it was so awesomely fun! ((:

i never really had so much fun with NETBALL before. yesterday, everyone on my team (alissa, sus, glow, marcus ng, ernest and me) ALL on form lorrr!! LOL!
yj and aloy dunno what happened (they were on opposite team, tog with cass, isaac and jedi)
and i made a few new friends. quite alot of ppl turned up. and the food was good! my many thanks to all those who helped cooK! (((: xin ku ni le! :P

we had alot of fun playing games. HAHAHA. and on the whole, i love it, it was really really very good. i really love this bunch of friends i have. my youth! everyone!! ((:

anw, i took loads of photos. ((: and it was really funn knowing and making new friends. we had a total of 12 new friends joining us. ((: hahaa.. thank GOD! we must catch on the waves! ((:

i reached home like real late on saturday. so tired lahh, sent cassandra home first then sent myself. LOL. and i think i got back at like 11.30 even tho i left church at like 9.45 or something like tt. :// TIREDDD. and i only slpt at 2plus am. (DUN ASK ME WHY. :P) but i managed to wake up at 9. HEH. and then changed and cabbed down with dad. had breakfast with dad. ((((:

and was abt 10mins late for service. :/// so funny, i msged sus and mel to save seat for me, and guess what? when i went up, the "youth row" only had mel. lol. and in front of him were the fan sisters. so i sat with mel lor. so poor thing, sit alone. lol. then ernest came and sat with us. and then nic came then sus, jem and glow and gwong sat behind. coz they did carwashing. LOL.

oh yeah, and yesterday was a cool day. not as in weather cool. but really very amazing! NEVER DOUBT GOD! and NEVER LIMIT HIM TO WHAT YOU THINK HE CAN DO! :P so amazing lahh. i helped to do carwash yesterday and helped raise funds for the thailand mission trip. let u in on a small secret, i've never washed a car before!!!! :// LOL. and it was... TIRINGGGGGGG! whoa, everywhere aching like crazy. :// i washed hengkah's car. with the help of nich, sus, jamie, glow. ooh, then ALEX came to help us wax hengkah's car. ((: how nice right? LOL. so cool lor.

and he joined us for teabreak. and then dinner-ed with us! ((: so funn! :P aft washing and packing up and all, we went to KFC to eat. ((: was oso quite funn. i dunno whyy. mayb coz i was taking random pictures of everyone. AHHA. oooh yeah, and i took ALOT of photos with mel yesterday! HAHAA. u know before yesterday, i only took 1 photo with mel? so sad right? lol. now its ALOT. but i tink stil less than 10. LOL. i'll upload later ((:

we pool-ed yesterday. at tp safra! :P so looonnnggg never pool le. but i very off form yesterday. ALL of them were like so good lahh. i went with aloy, nic, mel and alex. then marcus koh joined us aft gymming and then gab, yj and jem came. ((: we only paid like $2.20 per person. HAHA. so funn! ((: i really enjoyed myself yesterday. like truckloads.

but, i do want to say this, that WE (ALL OF US frm point comm) need to constantly pray for each other and to encourage each other. remember, when one is hurt, all of us get affected. so we must pray and pray and pray. we want another breakthru. to move on to the next level yes? ((:

mel, thanks for praying with me thru the past week! ((:

okayy, i need eat breakfast liaos. super hungry! and i WILL post the photos. but pls dun kop without my permission okay? ((: thanks.

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

WHOA. studyyyyyy...

2008-10-04T10:04:00.002+08:00

heyy ((:

okayy, i cant remember when was the last time i updated. well, my house now is in EVERY condition for ppl to view, and come visit me! LOL. its super big and clean and bright and HAPPY now. ((:

each day i come home, i must think again, did i walk into the wrong house? i'm stil nt used to the CLEAN, BRIGHT home i've got. this house is really HUGE! heh. dun believe? come see. even nicer than during xmas or CNY. heh.

anw, i didnt feel like schooling yesterday either. but i went. ((: and i thank GOD i went. yeah, even tho i kena scolded by my teacher, but her scolding was a positive one. [i think most of the teachers now very scared they losing us. HEH. all write quite nice stuff after they scold finish. lol]

yesterday, ms yani didnt come sch. and i heard she wasnt ard on thurs either. :// so we had 3 periods free. ((: which was quite long la. plus HT which had to do some career survey.

then HL, JAN, ZHIRA, MINYU and i went to BK for lunch. whoa, KFC got reduced in size! and BK nw looks like MACS (the ones in westmall) heh. and there's a swatch shop now.

we then rushed back to sch for our lesson. took the lift with mr chua (he's super nice and funny) and had some lame jokes and stuff. and talked abt A lvls. HEH. then realised, our classroom is on 1st floor. coz 4th floor the YR 1s had exams. so we took lift back down. lol.

had mr lee for awhile, then jan and i went over to benny lim's. he's quite good i guess, but i feel they abit late ah, now then come use the syllabus guide. HEH. but nonetheless, better than didnt at all. i had extra hist lesson frm 2.30 til almost 6!! its crazy lahh! ://

then i had to rush down to pp for cell. heh. sorry, i know i was VERY late. but i had extra class. and it's nt my fault tt 506 took such a looooonnnggg time! lol. and and, the whole of yesterday, i saw 18 yellow cars, (nt to mention, ms ang's car is yellow lol) 2 yellow vans and 1 yellow bus. (does a bus count? ernest, what do u think? :P ) lol. for those who dun get why i go count yellow vehicles, come ask me, or leave a tag! :P

ooh during tt 3periods free break, i managed to do some catching up with tong in the canteen. ((: i realised i soooo long nv talk to him le. he kept suaning me yesterday, but i guess my counters kinda left him speechless. HAHAHA. and we (fabian and i) helped tong tuned his NEW guitar. ((: ahhaa. so much fuN! :P

cell was pretty good. i finally got to share stuff with SUS!! ((: i think i cud take forever. sorry sus. oh yes, and i think we score A+++++++ for fellowship too. HEH. i think yep, we need to learn to encourage each other, love, embrace each other, and be more sensitive to the HS' guiding. yeahh? let me repeat this, its okay to joke ard once in a while, but always be mindful of how the other person u're joking with is taking it. learn to controL! and DO NOT suan each other!!!! UNDERSTAND?

oh yeahh, and abt the yellow car game, i think shudnt hit head, jus tap shoulders okay? nt nice to hit ppl's head lah huh? :P

ooh, and i finally got back all my results. HAHAHA. well, i SUB-PASSED all my H2. and i passed GP with an E. lol.

okayy, i'm nt sad or upset is because my grades all improved by 1 grade. which is quite cool. coz its prelims! and it wasnt tt tough and all. and i feel confident now tt i can do it. but of coz, i must still study lahh. which is what i'm gonna do now. :P

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

cyaa all at the BBQ~~!!! (((((:

home alone.

2008-10-02T15:12:00.003+08:00

heyy ((:

i'm kinda sian. i guess nw's a good time to go running to clear my head or something.

then come up, shower and do my work.

i'm in a state of confusion.

charii

INDULGENCE

2008-09-30T23:24:00.002+08:00