A Rainbow of Words

Thursday, July 27, 2006

foul mood

heys! yeps.. chari was in a super foul mood today. hsiang lin dint cum to sku today. coz of family stuff.. anw, i was actually alright til i kinda like tot abt sat cuming.. hais.. sat.. sat.. sat!!! so many things happening on tt day! i jus feel like screaming and shouting!!! :( yeah.. bad mood..

things jus cudnt get better. i cried like twice in sku la. super foul mood lors. then its like maths i cudnt get anyting into my head and my whole test i tink i gt zero lor. totally screwed la! argh! so irritated! i was kinda frustrated during maths. almost cried again. but aft awhile decided tt i shudnt.. coz i might vent my frustrations on my classmates. which.. realli.. wasnt their fault.. hais.. everynite before i slp i oso will cry de lor.. its like.. the vicious cycle is starting again. and then u start to tink.. is it worth it?

anw, i managed to finish up my hist essay! i woke up half way to like do it. coz its like my whole head keep tinking abt history lor. so, passed it to janessa to mark. anw, today's a super long day u c.. until 5.15pm leh! i really cudnt take it liaos. during maths, already gonna die.. imagine.. hais.. maths ended at 3 lor.. oh wells.. then econs.. my phone kept ringing non-stop.. kinda irritating.. but, tt was cleared liaos.. but it kinda added on to my moody thingy...

did alot of tinking today.. alot alot.. and i really dunno wad to say.. as in.. i haven really been doing my quiet time la. and i tried doing it this morning while waiting for hiah.. (btw, hiah drove me to sku today! :) thank YOU hiah hiah!) so i read the past passages too.. as in those days i missed.. this whole july and aug talking abt the be attitudes lor. its quite good la. but sumtimes.. i feel i'm missing the whole big picture. like.. i cant really concentrate.. i lose my focus of wad i'm doing here on earth.

when i nid like sumone to talk to.. y do i always feel tt i'm alone? like.. where's everyone? when i really nid sumone to ask stuff.. and like sumone i can c.. and get a direct answer frm.. where are all my christian frens when i really nid help in my walk and stuff.. like... are they jus my frens on sats and sundays? hais.. i mean.. i'm nt blaming anyone.. coz who knows wad i'm going thru.. but who really actually msges to ask.. so hw's u? then its like when i tell them wad's my day like.. they're like no longer interested to know. it seems like they're asking for the sake of asking.. oh wells.. no, i'm nt angry.. coz i mean do unto others wad u wan others to do unto u.. moreover, i haven been msging ppl asking them their day either..

i know what i must do.. i know i muz study.. even told myself tt i'll study first before cuming online.. but u know.. the temptation is great. plus.. i've been like studying the whole entire day.. absorbing and absorbing and absorbing la.. ms ang ( econs' teacher ) super bad mood oso. she teach super super the fast lor.. so i decided to come online and blog all my feelings first.. i really nid a break.. i nid to hear answers..

i nid answers........................

moody chari...**

Slid down the rainbow at 19:20

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