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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

where's my motivation?

sighs.. chari chari, u've gt to remember whose image u're portraying!! can u pls, snap out of ur bitchness??! RARR! CHARI!!! always remember to wear tt smile on ur face no matter hw tough or hw unhappy u are!! :///

i really want to say sorry. but i dunno where to start. and i dun tink its gonna make u feel better or forgive me. sighs..

went down to NYP today to watch weiteck's rehearsal. so sad, i wont be able to go on the actual day. the songs were really nice!! :D at first, i was quite sian, but aft the whole thing, i tink it wasnt a wasted trip. :)) been awhile since i walked those steps.

went to BK for dinner with reeza, vinc and vj. sorry for my attitude. :// i know i do have one. and i'm sorry. i'm nt angry with u guys or anything. i was bothered.

oh wells, and i dun have any motivation for math lah huh?! i cant do math. and no one is free to help me. well, vinc, i appreciated the few hrs today. really. thanks. but its nt enuff. and i understand tt u're bz.

oh GOD, pls take my attitude problem away. i dun want it. i reject it! i dun wana to be all bitchy and stuff. :// rarrr... i'm feeling guilty alrdy alrights? and i cant get all emotional and stuff. if nt my gastric will act up again. i had to eat. and when one is hungry, one gets angry easily. i guess the stress hit me too. the very fact tt i cudnt do a single math sum and went for a rehearsal... =.=

but but, it really wasnt all tt bad, when i was travelling back to semb frm yishun, i really thank GOD for friends. i thank GOD i went for weiteck's rehearsal, coz weiteck means something to me. and i haven seen him for a long time. i know he does sppreciate our support! and, if i didnt go, i might nt have food tt i want to eat for dinner.

all i really want is a simple dinner. really. jus 2 dishes. 1 soup and my fav cucumber with egg cooked by daddy and i'll be happy. i haven ate tt in ages! and i WANT it! y cant i return home to a family tt doesnt have outsiders everyday in it? y cant i come home with fresh cooked rice on the table and nt re-heat things frm the fridge?

no one to talk to. cant show my black face. i dun wana ppl to misunderstand me. nw even my best fren is in a bad mood and doesnt wana me anymore. :// i'm feeling horrible!

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chari

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