A Rainbow of Words

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

DOWN...

heyy...

i really dunno where to start. pls pray for me. i really have been feeling awfully down. and very negative. i dun feel like going sku. take yesterday for eg.

i dint want to go to sku. but i went, coz i know tt is what God wud wana be to do. so i went. but i didnt even enjoy class at all. for eg, hist we didnt really do anything much. jus some slides for the mock SMUN thingy. and lit i presented, but gt shot down for everything i said.. -.- dun quite wana go into details abt tt. i went to sku mainly coz of lit. believe me or not. not becoz i like the teacher or the sub, but coz i nided to ensure my grades make it by the end of the yr. but aft tt lesson, i was so demoralised tt i really felt like taking the withdrawal form. i felt extremely sick in sku. so my parents came down to bring me home.

i was so tired i slpt frm 6pm last nite til 9.40am today. and yeah, i didnt go sku today coz i'm on MC. so i'm supposed to rest. i know there's quite abit of work for me to do. but seriously no motivation. but i know somehw i got to do it still. guess i'll do it when i wake up later. :)

i'm trying very hard to motivate myself. i really want to finish this up. JEM's right. its only a few more months. and i can do it. its hw much i really want it. like i was saying, i nv wanted something so badly before in my whole entire life. and it was amazing.. so now, i guess i just nid to want this as bad!! i need to focus. i nid study partners!! i dunno where to find them..

i was thinking abt it.. and i guess i nid to go make peace with alot of ppl first. its a difficult period for myself and my family. we're really going thru alot. and i believe its becoz GOD's really doing something great in this familY! LORD, pls help me...

i need UR strength, patience and courage too...

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:
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Slid down the rainbow at 13:19

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