A Rainbow of Words

Friday, May 16, 2008

U KNOW WHO U ARE. THIS IS FOR U.

i dun even know what to put for the title.

so now, i'm at fault?! i havent felt so hurt and so maligned in my whole entire life. my intent was good alright? jus becoz u cant see frm my point of view doesnt mean i'm wrong. i didnt want to argue with u, and i jus tot i would tell u... coz i trusted u, and u're my best friend. and i tot u wud stick by me. but every single sentence u replied was to go against what i say, that made me so frustrated inside coz i cant explain in plain singlish what i really meant.

i wanted to shout in ur face.. i tot i hate u. but u know what? i love u so much more as a good friend that i cudnt even put "i hate u" on my msn nick for even 2mins! -.-'' say i'm lousy? no, its jus tt i dun believe the person i trusted and love as my brother would hurt me like tt.

u jus have no idea how painful my stomach hurts now becoz my crying aggrevates the pain. and i'm running a fever now coz i really feel i'm gonna explode. u got no idea how much u jus killed my joy. and honestly, u're the last person on earth that i tot wud EVER kill my joy. maybe we never clicked in the first place. maybe i just tried to hard to be ur friend.

well, maybe u cud have told me u dun wana me as ur friend. it wud have hurt, but probably not as bad as this. for once i can say, after a very long time, that i'm REALLY very sad. honestly.

i know u're busy, and tired. and gt work to do. i know. alright? i understand. i oso got work and everything. and my work's piling. why? coz i've been sick. and i dun like being sick. its a waste of money and its tiring to be tired.

all u can say is, its alright, i forgive u. HELLO?! i wasnt seeking ur forgiveness alright?! this time, i honestly feel u owe me an apology. this is my 2nd time i wont say sorry. yeahh, u were just saying i dont mean anything to any of u. :((( and i was jus thanking GOD for u ppl last wk, coz u ppl were the only friends i have left in this world. but it seems like mayb, i dun even have u ppl. coz u ppl dont wan me as a friend. mayb i've failed as a friend. u know what? this part, u're right, everyone has different expectations. and i've failed to meet YOUR expectations. am i supposed to be sorry to have failed to mit UR expectations? i was just being me. sharing with u what i felt and thot.

:((((((((((((

i'm really SAD, DISAPPOINTED, & HURT.

as long as its not life threatening, no one would bother.

Slid down the rainbow at 17:09

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