A Rainbow of Words

Monday, September 22, 2008

PACKING and CRYING.

heyy ((:

hello everyone. i've officially lost my voice, so dun call me, text me alright?

okayy, yesterday was quite fruitful. in terms tt we (my whole family) packed the hse together. and we packed quite a few boxes. a few shelves ard the hse was cleared. ((: quite good. HEH. and we got to see alot alot of old pics. like pictures of me since i was 3mths old to i was like 6. and of coz 8, and then mayb 13 or 14? lol. and the rest aft tt, i guess its digital! LOL. :p

we packed then had our rounds of sharing which made me cry. but i guess, they're right, like i've to go thru alot of things becoz GOD is molding and shaping me, and i'm like a piece of metal in the blacksmith's hands. whether or not i'll become a sword or shield or helmet or even jus a horseshoe, i still need to go thru the burning flames, into the water, with loads of hammering. it's jus the way GOD teaches me things. ((: and i can tell u, tho its difficult at times to handle, but i know it is for a GREAT purpose. ((:

dinner was GOOD. ((: as usual. and pretty reasonable. $42 for 7 ppl! HAHA ((:

then when i came home, i cried my heart out to GOD. i dun wana be distant from HIM. i feel i haven been in touch with GOD for a VERY LONG TIME. and it's nt healthy. and i dun wana stay away from GOD. i need HIM in my life. planning without GOD = not getting anywhere! and i want to get somewhere, i want to be where GOD wants me to be at! dont u want it that way too? knowing that you'll definitely get somewhere where you can safely, plus chop say this is where i've always wanted to be.

yesterday's worship was amazingg!! really very good. the songs chosen were really VERY good. it reminded me that we've got to put our trust in GOD and not in man. coz man can fail, but whatever GOD does for us is to mold us, and to build up our character in the way HE has planned for us. ((:

i need to re-adjust my lifestyle. it hasnt been healthy. MORE of GOD. LESS of me/friends.

oh yeahh, friends. sometimes, when u thot u got alot of them, and u thot those were the ones whom u love and love u, they jus kinda backstab u very badly. and this has made me realised, mayb no one really likes hanging out with me afterall. ppl jus put a false front or wear some sort of "smiley" mask in front of me or when they're out with me. well, i can tell all of u out there nw, that u dun have to, if u have an issue with me, and if i've done something wrong or u feel injustice, pls come and clarify with me. it might nt have been the case. and i want to apologise if i have made u feel this way.

i'm nt the kind that cannot talk things out. i will listen to what u have to say and clarify the matter with u than to have it drag on and i feel like a fool, coz now then i realised, there may be alot of ppl out there mad at me. i'm sorry. and i oso know sometimes, they may have backstabbed me without knowing it. i know there's also ppl who love me, but sometimes things u do, indirectly hurt me alot. which i guess, we need to clarify too.

WE, (ALL OF US) need to make peace, and live in peace with one another. and in humility too. know the difference btw false humility and really being humble. ((:

anw, today has been okay so far. i'm jus quite bothered by a few things which i need to like hibernate and go somewhere where there's no one, jus me and GOD. yepp.. and the other thing is, i need to study! heh. :P which i will do so sooN! i promise. lol. latest by 4 i'll start. i promise!! hahaaa. i shall do SEA history today! ((:

i need to keep clothes and hang them now. gtg! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

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