A Rainbow of Words

Saturday, November 22, 2008

FREEDOM BUT.....

heyy (((:

i'm extremely hyper and happy and all now.

because: A LEVELS has finally come to an end!!! ((((: HAHAHA!!!! :D:D:D:D

i didnt get to slp at all. and have survived on 4hrs of slp!! i dun believe myself. no wonder i sick. ANW, i'm feeling really negative and all. i prayed. i told the devil to get behind me.

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i didnt mean to be like that all the time. i didnt ask for the devil to attack me.
i tried so hard and i am still trying to really live a pure, blameless and righteous life for GOD.
and its not easy. not easy at all.

i really need support at this time. but it seems that i've drained you out in the process.
i'm sorry.
i never intended to. i really needed someone to walk thru with me.
i know GOD's with me, and thanks for trying to spur me on and praying for me and all.

i know i'm nt the easiest person to handle or talk to.
and you prolly now know i'm NOT all that nice eh?
i'm sorry to let you know, i'm HUMAN too.
i'm NOT perfect. and i got times where i'm down.
maybe its been often for this past week.
BUT, i'm nt like that all the time.
you shud know, i'm usually cheerful and bubbly and all!! ((:

i'm really not trying to defend myself or what, but i think you should know...
1) A lvls isnt the easiest thing to handle.
2) having to settle meals myself isnt my forte.
3) NOT being able to be with my family is difficult.

i need to let go steam too u know? and if u cant handle it, let me know, i'd do my best not to throw it at you.
i know i'm sarcastic and mad (as in crazy) almost all the time.
and i'm sorry.

life is full of ups and downs.
and GOD placed every one of the ups and downs in my life to mold and to shape me.
and every single one, i've to go thru it!!
in order to become a better person.
anw, i'm sorry.

i really treasure you alot.
and i love you.

i'm sorry if i ever hurt you in anyway.
I'M SORRY!
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okayy, all of that above, is dedicated to a very special friend whom have been there for me ever since since. THANK YOU!!!

anw, i really thank GOD i went for cell.
pretty cool.
it was at jem's place.
my first time at his house. HAHA.
pretty... HMMMM.... WAHHH! LOL.
and his room was... HAHAHA! HMMM. LOL
and cell was good.
about faith. and just the thing i needed to hear. and it was like all so timely!

HEART FAITH or HEAD FAITH? HEH.
HEART for me!! ((: <3

talked alot to sus. and prayed.
jem drove us back. HAHA. yes, he passed his driving!! (((:
drove his daddy's HUGE car.

and i had B&J's with SUS!
best thing ever!!!!
some cheesecake thingy. :P (cant remember the name)

its 2am and the rain isnt falling. (LOL, tt's if u know the song)
anw, and i'm extremely tired.

OH YES, BEN AND RENA bought me MEATBALLS and chicken WINGS from IKEA!!!!! ((((:
thank you hiah hiah and soh soh!!! super yummY!
filled with love. thanks (((:

okayy. gtg.
bowling tmr. HAHAH.
i'm feeling so much better!! ((:

thanks everyone for praying for me.
exams are finally over.
but pls continue to pray for me.
coz i'm still having stomach cramps.
THANK YOU once again! ((:

in HIS love.
CHARI ** ((:

LORD, i REALLY want to live for YOU!

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